I had a nightmare.
Enough said. I'm not willing to write about it. I don't want to remember. Maybe I'm worrying too much. I hope so.
segunda-feira, 4 de outubro de 2010
domingo, 26 de setembro de 2010
An image.
sexta-feira, 24 de setembro de 2010
Wow...
...Yeah... I kind of abandoned this. Poor blog. Well, life caught me up, so, I have to deal with it! I'm not complaining, though. Nah, the blog is mine, no one comes here, I post whenever I want. Yes.
I'm not sure why I decided to post here today. I can say today, Friday, September 24th is maybe a special day. Well, it's friday! And the day was full of epic things, so, I could just... "do my part"?
I have just awoken up from a dream I had and found myself all alone in the house. Time to party. Being honest, I feel somewhat revitalized; I needed this. I miss her so much. Dreaming just soothed my heart. It was so real... Upon awakening, I tried to "come back", but it was too late, I was fully awake. OTL
I remember I was on MSN, in my pajamas top and underwear, as always, and then she just got offline without even saying goodbye. I thought it was weird, but, well, it happens, maybe her connection was lost, or something. Then, hours later, my phone ringed and no one wanted to answer, so there I went.
"Hello?"
"Hi, I'm coming. Could you open the door for me? c:"
"AHGAHSFSAHSSGJKDA WHAT, HANNAH? WHAT?"
"I am going to spend the New Year with you, bah! Open the door?"
"S-sure, but... I didn't know you where coming... I'm on underwear, and such..."
"Nah, it's okay." > she says this a lot <3
Then I just had to wait for her in my apartment's door, covering myself with a blanket (epic scene). When the elevator's door opened, I just glomped her. Ah, I missed this feeling so much. See, I miss the touch contact.
Weird (and funny thing) is that one of her friends came with her; I thought it was because she couldn't travel alone? Not sure, but I like him somehow, even not knowing the guy. He just sat at the sofa with her and they began talking with my family like they knew them already, LOL. But it was my old family members, before my dad got divorced. These were my best New Year's family reunions.
After this, an important procedure: freaking out with Rikki at MSN yelling with Caps Lock at him. My demonstration of happiness is something that Master Card won't buy XD
I was still covering myself with the blanket, by the way. For some reason, she ended up in the kitchen to get a fork and a knife, and I was behind her. I'm a shameless person, I assume; my kitchen's lighting is weak because it needs two lamps and one is missing. I took advantage on this because I felt the urge to. She just pulled me laughing with a "not here", but she kissed me anyway. In a "real dream" like that you can see why I feel so happy.
Well, after this, she seemed a bit sick. I understand that, whenever I travel, I get this sick feeling, I feel weak and such. So I asked if she wanted to lay down for a moment, hoping she would feel better. She did so, and I stood by her side, messing with her hairbecause I am annoying.
Then, it was New Year's toast time. Everyone hugging each other, toasting, cheering, and all. I really enjoyed this when I had my "real" family. The last thing I remember of doing was hugging her having a glass of whine without alcohol in my right hand. We always bought those "no alcohol drinks", I don't enjoy alcohol. Ah, btw, I finally put pants on, my pajamas pants.
AND THEN. I woke up. Euphoric as I really had lived it. I feel pretty euphoric right now. Ha~ I really feel frustrated for not being able to remember many good dreams, but I am glad I could remember this one. After all, everything I wanted to do yesterday was like this. Ah, if someone had already invented teleportation.
I would use it, really!
I'm not sure why I decided to post here today. I can say today, Friday, September 24th is maybe a special day. Well, it's friday! And the day was full of epic things, so, I could just... "do my part"?
I have just awoken up from a dream I had and found myself all alone in the house. Time to party. Being honest, I feel somewhat revitalized; I needed this. I miss her so much. Dreaming just soothed my heart. It was so real... Upon awakening, I tried to "come back", but it was too late, I was fully awake. OTL
I remember I was on MSN, in my pajamas top and underwear, as always, and then she just got offline without even saying goodbye. I thought it was weird, but, well, it happens, maybe her connection was lost, or something. Then, hours later, my phone ringed and no one wanted to answer, so there I went.
"Hello?"
"Hi, I'm coming. Could you open the door for me? c:"
"AHGAHSFSAHSSGJKDA WHAT, HANNAH? WHAT?"
"I am going to spend the New Year with you, bah! Open the door?"
"S-sure, but... I didn't know you where coming... I'm on underwear, and such..."
"Nah, it's okay." > she says this a lot <3
Then I just had to wait for her in my apartment's door, covering myself with a blanket (epic scene). When the elevator's door opened, I just glomped her. Ah, I missed this feeling so much. See, I miss the touch contact.
Weird (and funny thing) is that one of her friends came with her; I thought it was because she couldn't travel alone? Not sure, but I like him somehow, even not knowing the guy. He just sat at the sofa with her and they began talking with my family like they knew them already, LOL. But it was my old family members, before my dad got divorced. These were my best New Year's family reunions.
After this, an important procedure: freaking out with Rikki at MSN yelling with Caps Lock at him. My demonstration of happiness is something that Master Card won't buy XD
I was still covering myself with the blanket, by the way. For some reason, she ended up in the kitchen to get a fork and a knife, and I was behind her. I'm a shameless person, I assume; my kitchen's lighting is weak because it needs two lamps and one is missing. I took advantage on this because I felt the urge to. She just pulled me laughing with a "not here", but she kissed me anyway. In a "real dream" like that you can see why I feel so happy.
Well, after this, she seemed a bit sick. I understand that, whenever I travel, I get this sick feeling, I feel weak and such. So I asked if she wanted to lay down for a moment, hoping she would feel better. She did so, and I stood by her side, messing with her hair
Then, it was New Year's toast time. Everyone hugging each other, toasting, cheering, and all. I really enjoyed this when I had my "real" family. The last thing I remember of doing was hugging her having a glass of whine without alcohol in my right hand. We always bought those "no alcohol drinks", I don't enjoy alcohol. Ah, btw, I finally put pants on, my pajamas pants.
AND THEN. I woke up. Euphoric as I really had lived it. I feel pretty euphoric right now. Ha~ I really feel frustrated for not being able to remember many good dreams, but I am glad I could remember this one. After all, everything I wanted to do yesterday was like this. Ah, if someone had already invented teleportation.
I would use it, really!
terça-feira, 27 de julho de 2010
Black Rock Shooter
I just watched the Black Rock Shooter (link for the song if you don't know it yet) OVA. Black Rock Shooter, originally, was a picture by the Supercell band member HUKE. The following:

Later, a song was created based on this picture, its PV as well. It was also made and animated by HUKE, while the lyrics and song itself belong to another Supercell member, ryo, known for making the songs World is Mine (WAARUDO IZU MAIN, ワールドイズマイン), Love is War (Koi wa Sensou, 恋は戦争) and Melt (MERUTO, メルト). In all of these songs, the software Hatsune Miku VOCALOID CVC02 by Crypton was used as singer.
Wow, feature time here! It's almost merchandising! Now back to the subject.
In fact, Black Rock Shooter is not Hatsune Miku. They just happened to look alike.
FINICKY PEOPLE ABOUT SPOILERS, STOP HERE. I won't tell anything relevant about the OVA, but you can't say I didn't warn you I was about to say something.
Right in the beginning it shows us how Black Rock Shooter got her scars. That was an unnecessary but still interesting point, I enjoyed they did show it.
While switching scenes between the "BRS territory" and "real world" I noticed it had a hidden sense. Somehow, the things happening in the BRS territory were kind of predicting what would happen next in the real world. I don't know if I'm seeing more than I was meant to, but I connected things like this.
It's way more interesting to see it and give it an understanding of your own.
And also! Mato is the kind of protagonist who captivates us. She shows us her real feelings all the time, that's great! Her friendship with Yomi was one of the tighest I ever saw, and I admit, it deeply touched me. The part when Mato asks Yomi if she can lend her homework to her was the best for me xD Also all the beautiful moments they spent together. It soothes my soul to see true friendships like their.
When the final battle ended, I cried, seriously. Black Rock Shooter tried with all of her emotion and guts. When she finally said "Watashi wa... Burakku Rokku Shutaa (I am Black Rock Shooter)", I went crazy.
Then, my impressions about the OVA: if you look too literal on it, you'll find it pretty vague. That it's only one of those silly stories when two people are friends and they then have problems on their relationship and end up enemies. This is very clichè.
If you understand the moral within the story, I'm sure you can enjoy it. Also, the animation is very good, the colors are rich, the movements, perfect, the feeling on it. And if you like Black Rock Shooter's song, of course you would go crazy when it finally plays on the OVA.

Later, a song was created based on this picture, its PV as well. It was also made and animated by HUKE, while the lyrics and song itself belong to another Supercell member, ryo, known for making the songs World is Mine (WAARUDO IZU MAIN, ワールドイズマイン), Love is War (Koi wa Sensou, 恋は戦争) and Melt (MERUTO, メルト). In all of these songs, the software Hatsune Miku VOCALOID CVC02 by Crypton was used as singer.
Wow, feature time here! It's almost merchandising! Now back to the subject.
In fact, Black Rock Shooter is not Hatsune Miku. They just happened to look alike.
FINICKY PEOPLE ABOUT SPOILERS, STOP HERE. I won't tell anything relevant about the OVA, but you can't say I didn't warn you I was about to say something.
Right in the beginning it shows us how Black Rock Shooter got her scars. That was an unnecessary but still interesting point, I enjoyed they did show it.
While switching scenes between the "BRS territory" and "real world" I noticed it had a hidden sense. Somehow, the things happening in the BRS territory were kind of predicting what would happen next in the real world. I don't know if I'm seeing more than I was meant to, but I connected things like this.
It's way more interesting to see it and give it an understanding of your own.
And also! Mato is the kind of protagonist who captivates us. She shows us her real feelings all the time, that's great! Her friendship with Yomi was one of the tighest I ever saw, and I admit, it deeply touched me. The part when Mato asks Yomi if she can lend her homework to her was the best for me xD Also all the beautiful moments they spent together. It soothes my soul to see true friendships like their.
When the final battle ended, I cried, seriously. Black Rock Shooter tried with all of her emotion and guts. When she finally said "Watashi wa... Burakku Rokku Shutaa (I am Black Rock Shooter)", I went crazy.
Then, my impressions about the OVA: if you look too literal on it, you'll find it pretty vague. That it's only one of those silly stories when two people are friends and they then have problems on their relationship and end up enemies. This is very clichè.
If you understand the moral within the story, I'm sure you can enjoy it. Also, the animation is very good, the colors are rich, the movements, perfect, the feeling on it. And if you like Black Rock Shooter's song, of course you would go crazy when it finally plays on the OVA.
quinta-feira, 22 de julho de 2010
Motivation!
Today I woke up feeling motivated! I want to do something different! Draw, watch anime, write anything...! Throw away my worries about future career and family, what is meant to be will be! :D
Everything I can think about now is when I'm going to see her again. Because I really want to! Really really.
Maybe I'll watch some anime while I lunch. Don't know. At last, it's vacation time for me! I was behaving as it was not. School will start in two weeks for me, and geez, it is almost nothing!
Where's my positive thoughts right now? That's right! I am positive! Let's think +++++!
As you can see, I woke up happy today. Happiest days, you know. My wants metter is on Platinum ;) Simmers, you got this one.
Everything I can think about now is when I'm going to see her again. Because I really want to! Really really.
Maybe I'll watch some anime while I lunch. Don't know. At last, it's vacation time for me! I was behaving as it was not. School will start in two weeks for me, and geez, it is almost nothing!
Where's my positive thoughts right now? That's right! I am positive! Let's think +++++!
As you can see, I woke up happy today. Happiest days, you know. My wants metter is on Platinum ;) Simmers, you got this one.
terça-feira, 20 de julho de 2010
Hey, everyone! I just arrived from São Paulo (yes, it’s another city, far from here, btw), actually, I just woke up, because I arrived my mother’s home at 5:30AM and fell in the bed. LOL Well, let’s go... *euphoric
Day 15, Thursday
Here I am arriving in SP (São Paulo, Sao Paulo, Saint Paul, in a lame translation). It’s 6AM right now, and we and the people in the caravan are heading to the hotel where we can leave our things in our rooms and then, right away to the event. I may add the air here is kind of… less “breathable” than in my actual “hometown”. I am a bit sick of the traveling, I know I wasn’t mean to travel in buses, but I still like to. This, or airplane.
I’m still uncertain if I can be relieved Paula and her mother are in the same room as me and my mom, or if I can be annoyed. Paula’s mother pisses me off really easily, she says the same thing many times, and I don’t like this kind of repetition.
[10AM] We got in the event, and it looked way smaller than it really is. When I could break free from the line, it just proved my first impression wrong. It is HUGE. Btw, I spent so many time standing in line, maybe almost an hour. There I met my friend Rikki, I was holding a sign written “Rikki, look at us here *¬*”, LOL. When he passed by that door, I literally jumped on him XD
The first day was normal. Not many people in the event, the three of us walked a lot… and I bought two nendoroids and a figure. My mom told me I was out of control, LOL. I bought Yowane Haku and Akita Neru (nendoroid) and Hatsune Miku (figure), she’s huge! LOL. And her price, as well, was huge. But she’s so beautiful it does make it worth. I guess… LOL
When I finally arrived at the hotel, I could rest a bit. Until the next morning at 8:30AM. I had a weird dream. I was in the middle of a unknown street, it was raining, and I was in a white dress and a rose made crown, singing Just be Friends by Megurine Luka (VOCALOID CV03).
Day 16, Friday
I was feeling sick when I woke up. Then I started to dress, it was cosplay day for me! I bandaged my chest, put an extra pants under my cosplay one. I went downstairs to eat some cake and… just this, LOL, in the breakfast. Water. I drank water. The breakfast there was a little… nasty. *finicky* I mean, I didn’t like most of the things there.
Today was an euphoric day! At least, I was euphoric! I was going to meet more two friends. And I was finally wearing myfail cosplay! Me and my friend (Rikki) were meant to take a battle photo, but the weather was a bitch, and we were like “not now”. We just forgot to take the photo later.
When my friend (Hannah, the Ninon Beart one) found me, a photographer was taking my photo. She kinda tickled me, and when I turned back, I screamed and jumped on her, really! After so many time wanting to meet each other, we finally did it! I was very, very happy :’D And I could finally give her the gift I bought two years ago (it was a plushie cow). We didn’t want to stop hugging each other, and my mom said “Stop it, I’m easily moved by this kind of things :’D” xD
On a videogame area we found another friend, Hyque. We were like “who’s that” until he introduced himself, so we went “Ohhhhh! 8D” and greeted him. The weird thing is that after this, he completely vanished. Me, Hannah and Rikki went to a place called Asia Fest and sent him a cellphone message telling him where we were. But he didn’t show up. We spent one hour or more there, and nothing.
Oh, yes. I also got engaged and married at Asia Fest. Using those “white board” signs, I asked my anata and just found out I was already married with her. LOL. Then a random guy came, stole my sign and started to draw my caricature on it. He totally broke the romance.
Before this, I remember we were at one of the stages there in the event, Paula was going to perform her presentation as Suigin Tou, but we didn’t see it. We needed some rest, and Asia Fest was the only place that had available chairs.We also had to wait for Hyque.
Back at the hotel, I didn’t believe I could finally remove those bandages. I felt so much relieved, no sense of how. That’s the problem with crossdressing. And I don’t “have” many… “thing” in my chest. If I had…well, it could be worse.
Day 17, Saturday
Ah! The best day ever! I can’t believe on how it was. I actually can’t believe until now <3 I woke up feeling very sick, and woke up, like… two hours earlier because Paula’s mother just decided to make noise arranging their things. Ok, ok, I understand, but two hours earlier?! It pissed me off, since I was already feeling bad.
After a breakfast on which I didn’t eat actually nothing, only a watermelon piece (thing that doesn’t fill you up), we went to a “tour” in the city, in a district called Liberdade (Liberty, or if you want my literal and lame translation, Freedom). We saw many things there, it was a Nipponese district. I filmed some of its places, and took photos.
Paula didn’t give me a break and often told me to “take a chance”. I guess I kind of tried this after, when we got at Anime Friends after lunch. You don’t have to know what she meant. But maybe you can find it out.
I met Rikki, Hannah and Ingrid (her friend) randomly there, walking together. We ended up in the karaoke/videogame room, where I wanted to try to sing. Waiting my turn, we sat in the front of the door. Hannah was feeling sick, and I knew she went to the infirmary in AF. Even thus, I hugged her, LOL. I’m very inconvenient. But this really worried me, she told me she didn’t eat anything, or sleep well…
We found chairs inside the room, and sat there, since the room was much warmer. The weather was unpleasant again. In my turn, I sang Tsunaida te ni kiss wo (D.Gray-Man), but the music stopped in the middle of the song. The people there started to say “That’s sabotage, only because she was singing well! :U” xD I feel happy they thought so. Then it started again from the beginning, but I couldn’t help it and started to laugh in one of the parts XD Trash, I know. I got applauded at the end, and my friends told me I was the one who sang better. But they are suspect to say. At least, I feel happy they enjoyed. :’D
Now outside the room, Ingrid told us she was going… somewhere… *can’t remember* And vanished. Hannah started to tremble because she was feeling cold, and her cosplay was very unfortunate of having her to use a short instead of pants.
(she didn’t cosplay yesterday because of the cold, anyway. She was beautiful. Lie, she IS beautiful.)
Everything I could do: hug her and try to warm her. At least I had a excuse to walk holding her close like that. Paula and Rikki were walking after us and suddenly, Paula shows us a sign written “We will disappear!”. And they disappeared, really. I knew this was Paula’s way of “help”. I just knew it.
Hannah and I ended up in a room called “Under a Rose”, where some people were squeezing a plushie cat in the showcase’s glass to the passerby’s to see. They had also a television exhibiting something about bands, I remember almost nothing but that we sat there and were… I don’t know how I can call, cuddling? …Really?
I just know I was feeling… I don’t know… Feel her hand on my arm was… I mean, I was dressed, but I could still feel it firm there. My heart was beating madly, my cheek was leaning on her face, everything I did was sigh all the time… And I also messed up her hair. LOL
I did wait too much to gather all my courage to ask her to close her eyes and kiss her in the cheek. Yeah, I am like that. I just didn’t expect that after retributing the kiss and hugging me, she would hold my face and kiss me. Yes, I didn’t. That’s one of the reasons why my face was like “What”. One of the many. And because… there was so many people that could see… I didn’t think I would try it there, but she did… so…
…yes, so… Hate you? No. I love you. I had never felt like this.
I can assume I was thinking on how to do it again still that day. I just needed to. Being too shy spoils everything. And when you combine a shy person with a crowded place and a “forbidden” thing? It’s thousand times worse. Walking holding hands for while could help to suppress this. It didn’t. We even looked for a warm and quiet place, but being cold as it was, everyone was gathering in the warm places…
I also assume I can’t remember many things, maybe I was focusing too much on think of how I could do that. LOL Stupid. But I had to. I know that when she was about to leave the event (now she changed her clothes and wasn’t feeling cold anymore), and when I saw myself free of my mother around, I pulled her to a place near to say goodbye, it was time for her to go home. Thanks God it was too dark, so my mom probably didn’t see that kiss. Murphy is a bitch and she called me JUST THIS MOMENT. It was a bit frenetic, now I wonder if all our “things” are meant to be funny xD
If they are, I can’t imagine how could be the serious marriage proposal. I hope it doesn’t involve light sabers and titanic. Just thinking.
Yes… I love you so much too…
What I remember after that? Almost nothing. I went to the food court, it was near the stage where Paula performed. My mind was in the clouds. And my friends noticed it. I just wrote “Happy, but tired” in my sign, the word “happy” having several hearts, rainbows and musical notes around it. Oh! And we saw a girl with a sign written “Does anyone know Hetalia?”. Rikki and I just said: “Hetaliaaaaaa! :D” The girl was like “OHMY, SOMEONE 8D” and answered with the most excited “HETALIAAAA! :D” I ever saw until now. It was funny. XD
Back at the hotel, I just fell in the bed and stayed there sighing. I was surely happy, in Alpha estate. I didn’t even take my cosplay clothing off (thanks God again I didn’t bandage my chest this day), I was too busy being a love fool~ I. want. more.
Day 18, Sunday (last day)
Not much to talk about this one. The event was even more crowded than before, I swear I didn’t see so many people in my life. It was harder to move, and I got lost, like, four times from my mother and the other two. Thinking well, getting lost was one of the things I did the most in these four days.
God knows how, I found Rikki there, just because he was with a sign written “Rikki here” and he was calling me. He also almost broke me when saying goodbye XD’ I hate to admit it, but I am very delicate. My body, at least.
Back in the bus, going home, the people there, I don’t know how, just started to sing in a non-stop. I have no idea what those people drink or take, but it does work! They were singing anime openings in our language, and after, in Japanese. I sang the ones I knew, and I am hoar now, LOL.
After this text wall <3 I just can say I had so much fun. And that unfortunately, I didn’t take the battle photo. *dork* And I’m still wearing my day 17 and 18 bracelets, the ones they put on us so they know we are in the event. I’m just wearing my day 18 bracelet because it’s orange and it happens to be my favorite color. Day 17… I’m not taking it off. Not really < 33333333
Day 15, Thursday
Here I am arriving in SP (São Paulo, Sao Paulo, Saint Paul, in a lame translation). It’s 6AM right now, and we and the people in the caravan are heading to the hotel where we can leave our things in our rooms and then, right away to the event. I may add the air here is kind of… less “breathable” than in my actual “hometown”. I am a bit sick of the traveling, I know I wasn’t mean to travel in buses, but I still like to. This, or airplane.
I’m still uncertain if I can be relieved Paula and her mother are in the same room as me and my mom, or if I can be annoyed. Paula’s mother pisses me off really easily, she says the same thing many times, and I don’t like this kind of repetition.
[10AM] We got in the event, and it looked way smaller than it really is. When I could break free from the line, it just proved my first impression wrong. It is HUGE. Btw, I spent so many time standing in line, maybe almost an hour. There I met my friend Rikki, I was holding a sign written “Rikki, look at us here *¬*”, LOL. When he passed by that door, I literally jumped on him XD
The first day was normal. Not many people in the event, the three of us walked a lot… and I bought two nendoroids and a figure. My mom told me I was out of control, LOL. I bought Yowane Haku and Akita Neru (nendoroid) and Hatsune Miku (figure), she’s huge! LOL. And her price, as well, was huge. But she’s so beautiful it does make it worth. I guess… LOL
When I finally arrived at the hotel, I could rest a bit. Until the next morning at 8:30AM. I had a weird dream. I was in the middle of a unknown street, it was raining, and I was in a white dress and a rose made crown, singing Just be Friends by Megurine Luka (VOCALOID CV03).
Day 16, Friday
I was feeling sick when I woke up. Then I started to dress, it was cosplay day for me! I bandaged my chest, put an extra pants under my cosplay one. I went downstairs to eat some cake and… just this, LOL, in the breakfast. Water. I drank water. The breakfast there was a little… nasty. *finicky* I mean, I didn’t like most of the things there.
Today was an euphoric day! At least, I was euphoric! I was going to meet more two friends. And I was finally wearing my
When my friend (Hannah, the Ninon Beart one) found me, a photographer was taking my photo. She kinda tickled me, and when I turned back, I screamed and jumped on her, really! After so many time wanting to meet each other, we finally did it! I was very, very happy :’D And I could finally give her the gift I bought two years ago (it was a plushie cow). We didn’t want to stop hugging each other, and my mom said “Stop it, I’m easily moved by this kind of things :’D” xD
On a videogame area we found another friend, Hyque. We were like “who’s that” until he introduced himself, so we went “Ohhhhh! 8D” and greeted him. The weird thing is that after this, he completely vanished. Me, Hannah and Rikki went to a place called Asia Fest and sent him a cellphone message telling him where we were. But he didn’t show up. We spent one hour or more there, and nothing.
Oh, yes. I also got engaged and married at Asia Fest. Using those “white board” signs, I asked my anata and just found out I was already married with her. LOL. Then a random guy came, stole my sign and started to draw my caricature on it. He totally broke the romance.
Before this, I remember we were at one of the stages there in the event, Paula was going to perform her presentation as Suigin Tou, but we didn’t see it. We needed some rest, and Asia Fest was the only place that had available chairs.
Back at the hotel, I didn’t believe I could finally remove those bandages. I felt so much relieved, no sense of how. That’s the problem with crossdressing. And I don’t “have” many… “thing” in my chest. If I had…well, it could be worse.
Day 17, Saturday
Ah! The best day ever! I can’t believe on how it was. I actually can’t believe until now <3 I woke up feeling very sick, and woke up, like… two hours earlier because Paula’s mother just decided to make noise arranging their things. Ok, ok, I understand, but two hours earlier?! It pissed me off, since I was already feeling bad.
After a breakfast on which I didn’t eat actually nothing, only a watermelon piece (thing that doesn’t fill you up), we went to a “tour” in the city, in a district called Liberdade (Liberty, or if you want my literal and lame translation, Freedom). We saw many things there, it was a Nipponese district. I filmed some of its places, and took photos.
Paula didn’t give me a break and often told me to “take a chance”. I guess I kind of tried this after, when we got at Anime Friends after lunch. You don’t have to know what she meant. But maybe you can find it out.
I met Rikki, Hannah and Ingrid (her friend) randomly there, walking together. We ended up in the karaoke/videogame room, where I wanted to try to sing. Waiting my turn, we sat in the front of the door. Hannah was feeling sick, and I knew she went to the infirmary in AF. Even thus, I hugged her, LOL. I’m very inconvenient. But this really worried me, she told me she didn’t eat anything, or sleep well…
We found chairs inside the room, and sat there, since the room was much warmer. The weather was unpleasant again. In my turn, I sang Tsunaida te ni kiss wo (D.Gray-Man), but the music stopped in the middle of the song. The people there started to say “That’s sabotage, only because she was singing well! :U” xD I feel happy they thought so. Then it started again from the beginning, but I couldn’t help it and started to laugh in one of the parts XD Trash, I know. I got applauded at the end, and my friends told me I was the one who sang better. But they are suspect to say. At least, I feel happy they enjoyed. :’D
Now outside the room, Ingrid told us she was going… somewhere… *can’t remember* And vanished. Hannah started to tremble because she was feeling cold, and her cosplay was very unfortunate of having her to use a short instead of pants.
(she didn’t cosplay yesterday because of the cold, anyway. She was beautiful. Lie, she IS beautiful.)
Everything I could do: hug her and try to warm her. At least I had a excuse to walk holding her close like that. Paula and Rikki were walking after us and suddenly, Paula shows us a sign written “We will disappear!”. And they disappeared, really. I knew this was Paula’s way of “help”. I just knew it.
Hannah and I ended up in a room called “Under a Rose”, where some people were squeezing a plushie cat in the showcase’s glass to the passerby’s to see. They had also a television exhibiting something about bands, I remember almost nothing but that we sat there and were… I don’t know how I can call, cuddling? …Really?
I just know I was feeling… I don’t know… Feel her hand on my arm was… I mean, I was dressed, but I could still feel it firm there. My heart was beating madly, my cheek was leaning on her face, everything I did was sigh all the time… And I also messed up her hair. LOL
I did wait too much to gather all my courage to ask her to close her eyes and kiss her in the cheek. Yeah, I am like that. I just didn’t expect that after retributing the kiss and hugging me, she would hold my face and kiss me. Yes, I didn’t. That’s one of the reasons why my face was like “What”. One of the many. And because… there was so many people that could see… I didn’t think I would try it there, but she did… so…
…yes, so… Hate you? No. I love you. I had never felt like this.
I can assume I was thinking on how to do it again still that day. I just needed to. Being too shy spoils everything. And when you combine a shy person with a crowded place and a “forbidden” thing? It’s thousand times worse. Walking holding hands for while could help to suppress this. It didn’t. We even looked for a warm and quiet place, but being cold as it was, everyone was gathering in the warm places…
I also assume I can’t remember many things, maybe I was focusing too much on think of how I could do that. LOL Stupid. But I had to. I know that when she was about to leave the event (now she changed her clothes and wasn’t feeling cold anymore), and when I saw myself free of my mother around, I pulled her to a place near to say goodbye, it was time for her to go home. Thanks God it was too dark, so my mom probably didn’t see that kiss. Murphy is a bitch and she called me JUST THIS MOMENT. It was a bit frenetic, now I wonder if all our “things” are meant to be funny xD
If they are, I can’t imagine how could be the serious marriage proposal. I hope it doesn’t involve light sabers and titanic. Just thinking.
Yes… I love you so much too…
What I remember after that? Almost nothing. I went to the food court, it was near the stage where Paula performed. My mind was in the clouds. And my friends noticed it. I just wrote “Happy, but tired” in my sign, the word “happy” having several hearts, rainbows and musical notes around it. Oh! And we saw a girl with a sign written “Does anyone know Hetalia?”. Rikki and I just said: “Hetaliaaaaaa! :D” The girl was like “OHMY, SOMEONE 8D” and answered with the most excited “HETALIAAAA! :D” I ever saw until now. It was funny. XD
Back at the hotel, I just fell in the bed and stayed there sighing. I was surely happy, in Alpha estate. I didn’t even take my cosplay clothing off (thanks God again I didn’t bandage my chest this day), I was too busy being a love fool~ I. want. more.
Day 18, Sunday (last day)
Not much to talk about this one. The event was even more crowded than before, I swear I didn’t see so many people in my life. It was harder to move, and I got lost, like, four times from my mother and the other two. Thinking well, getting lost was one of the things I did the most in these four days.
God knows how, I found Rikki there, just because he was with a sign written “Rikki here” and he was calling me. He also almost broke me when saying goodbye XD’ I hate to admit it, but I am very delicate. My body, at least.
Back in the bus, going home, the people there, I don’t know how, just started to sing in a non-stop. I have no idea what those people drink or take, but it does work! They were singing anime openings in our language, and after, in Japanese. I sang the ones I knew, and I am hoar now, LOL.
After this text wall <3 I just can say I had so much fun. And that unfortunately, I didn’t take the battle photo. *dork* And I’m still wearing my day 17 and 18 bracelets, the ones they put on us so they know we are in the event. I’m just wearing my day 18 bracelet because it’s orange and it happens to be my favorite color. Day 17… I’m not taking it off. Not really < 33333333
terça-feira, 13 de julho de 2010
Countdown!
Yeah, as always, I vanished suddenly. But no worry (or worry, a lot), I'm back! :D I've been sick, very sick, so I gave this up for a while. Now I'm all healthy and ready to go again!
And also! Talking about going somewhere, it's official: countdown to Anime Friends for me!
(if you are wondering what is Anime Friends, let's say it's an anime/manga event that happens once a year)
I'm going to cosplay as Roark (Hyouta) from Pokémon Diamond and Pearl. I just hope it's not this fail. LOL And and and also! I'm going to meet my friends there. I am so happy and euphoric! Today I woke up at 5AM, lol, I only do things like this when I am anxious for something. It's kinda hilarious and silly, I admit. LOL
I'll take a lot of photos, so many my camera will probably explode~ One of my friends will cosplay Lucas (also Pokémon Diamond and Pearl), another one will Ninon Beart (King of Fighters) and the one who's accompanying me, Suigin Tou (Rozen Maiden). Geez, it's gonna be amazing! I can't wait!
Wednesday, 11PM. I'm taking the bus to the city where the event takes place. Two days.
And also! Talking about going somewhere, it's official: countdown to Anime Friends for me!
(if you are wondering what is Anime Friends, let's say it's an anime/manga event that happens once a year)
I'm going to cosplay as Roark (Hyouta) from Pokémon Diamond and Pearl. I just hope it's not this fail. LOL And and and also! I'm going to meet my friends there. I am so happy and euphoric! Today I woke up at 5AM, lol, I only do things like this when I am anxious for something. It's kinda hilarious and silly, I admit. LOL
I'll take a lot of photos, so many my camera will probably explode~ One of my friends will cosplay Lucas (also Pokémon Diamond and Pearl), another one will Ninon Beart (King of Fighters) and the one who's accompanying me, Suigin Tou (Rozen Maiden). Geez, it's gonna be amazing! I can't wait!
Wednesday, 11PM. I'm taking the bus to the city where the event takes place. Two days.
segunda-feira, 7 de junho de 2010
Holiday
So, I'm home again! I got tired from the traveling, but I went straight to Paula's house with Barbara @ saturday, since it was holiday here. And the details...
Thursday, Friday
I went to my mother's house. I don't spend many time with her, so I always have fun, even hating that city and the place where she lives. Ah, sometimes I just think I miss my mother. The funny thing is that I have never got along well with her XD
Thursday we went to the movies, me, my mother and sister, to watch Prince of Persia: Sands of Time. I really enjoyed the movie, and I think the cast looked a lot like the characters, especially Dastan and Tamina. Tamina was very beautiful as they said, indeed. After the movie finished, we walked inside the shopping, and I suddenly was hit by something as I saw the shelves of the stores: Valentine's Day is coming (here on my country, it's dated as June 12th).
My mother looked at a chocolate rose in the shelf and said: "That could do a nice gift. I think I'll give that to my girlfriend."
Then I was hit again. Girl...friend. What was that. When I asked for an explanation, she just said: "Well, my friend Carla doesn't have a boyfriend, me neither, so we change gifts. She says I am the man of the relationship."
And she started to laugh, like, enjoying herself, while I'm sure my face blushed so badly I could even feel the heat on my cheeks. Yes, yes, it's joke, but I didn't expect something like this coming from her, since she is so... religious.
Friday, at morning, I went to a hairdresser to cut my bangs because they were annoying me being too long, and decided to cut a bit of my hair since its hair tips were damaged a little. I told the lady to cut one finger of the lenght, and it looked like she cut at least 3. That's okay, hair grows, and I like it the way it is now, I just... wanted to leave it grow long again, but now it will take more time.
Saturday
I got in the bus, took my assent, and slept all the travel back. When I arrived at the bus station, I called Paula, and her mother came with her to take me, and then, Barbara, to their house. Arriving there, I threw myself in her bed and started to loaf around. Then, Barbara (who was playing orkut games until now) was like "Let's watch Hetalia! :D", and we were like "LOL, okay! :D"
Hetalia: Axis Powers is a very funny anime, which I don't know if I can call anime, since each episode is about five minutes long. Italy is awesome XD He's so funny and jolly. I like all of them, but Italy, being the protagonist, calls our attention. Oh, and the other two countries too: Germany and Japan. Especially when Italy hugs Japan XD I laughed a lot at this scene.
Later, I played Shadow of the Colossus (cause I won't lose any chance to play it XD), got owned multiple times by Phalanx until I finally managed to get on him (hitting his air bags was easy in comparison to the task of getting on him. Every time I jumped from Agro, I couldn't hold firmly on his fins). And then, straight to Cenobia, ignoring the fact that he's the colossus I fear the most (after Hydrus and Argus, maybe), because he's small and one hit, you're knocked out. But I did it. In a lame way, but I did it! XD
And stopped, next is Argus and then Malus... and so the game ends. I don't want the end yet, nor I want to fight Argus.
Sleep time, everyone in their beds. I was sharing the bed with Barbara, while Paula was on hers. Barbara was knocked out by sleepiness while I played Okami, and then I started to talk to Paula. And the most random things came out. We laughed a lot XD
And today, monday, I just arrived school with her since her mother took me there, and as we were late, we sat in the secretary's couch and started to read a book which test would be in the next class. It was funny how people gathered there wanting to know the story, because no one read it. Yes. My Literature teacher has a very... boring taste for books.
Text wall, but I don't care! 8D If you got to read until now, here's a cookie for you. *runs*
Thursday, Friday
I went to my mother's house. I don't spend many time with her, so I always have fun, even hating that city and the place where she lives. Ah, sometimes I just think I miss my mother. The funny thing is that I have never got along well with her XD
Thursday we went to the movies, me, my mother and sister, to watch Prince of Persia: Sands of Time. I really enjoyed the movie, and I think the cast looked a lot like the characters, especially Dastan and Tamina. Tamina was very beautiful as they said, indeed. After the movie finished, we walked inside the shopping, and I suddenly was hit by something as I saw the shelves of the stores: Valentine's Day is coming (here on my country, it's dated as June 12th).
My mother looked at a chocolate rose in the shelf and said: "That could do a nice gift. I think I'll give that to my girlfriend."
Then I was hit again. Girl...friend. What was that. When I asked for an explanation, she just said: "Well, my friend Carla doesn't have a boyfriend, me neither, so we change gifts. She says I am the man of the relationship."
And she started to laugh, like, enjoying herself, while I'm sure my face blushed so badly I could even feel the heat on my cheeks. Yes, yes, it's joke, but I didn't expect something like this coming from her, since she is so... religious.
Friday, at morning, I went to a hairdresser to cut my bangs because they were annoying me being too long, and decided to cut a bit of my hair since its hair tips were damaged a little. I told the lady to cut one finger of the lenght, and it looked like she cut at least 3. That's okay, hair grows, and I like it the way it is now, I just... wanted to leave it grow long again, but now it will take more time.
Saturday
I got in the bus, took my assent, and slept all the travel back. When I arrived at the bus station, I called Paula, and her mother came with her to take me, and then, Barbara, to their house. Arriving there, I threw myself in her bed and started to loaf around. Then, Barbara (who was playing orkut games until now) was like "Let's watch Hetalia! :D", and we were like "LOL, okay! :D"
Hetalia: Axis Powers is a very funny anime, which I don't know if I can call anime, since each episode is about five minutes long. Italy is awesome XD He's so funny and jolly. I like all of them, but Italy, being the protagonist, calls our attention. Oh, and the other two countries too: Germany and Japan. Especially when Italy hugs Japan XD I laughed a lot at this scene.
Later, I played Shadow of the Colossus (cause I won't lose any chance to play it XD), got owned multiple times by Phalanx until I finally managed to get on him (hitting his air bags was easy in comparison to the task of getting on him. Every time I jumped from Agro, I couldn't hold firmly on his fins). And then, straight to Cenobia, ignoring the fact that he's the colossus I fear the most (after Hydrus and Argus, maybe), because he's small and one hit, you're knocked out. But I did it. In a lame way, but I did it! XD
And stopped, next is Argus and then Malus... and so the game ends. I don't want the end yet, nor I want to fight Argus.
Sleep time, everyone in their beds. I was sharing the bed with Barbara, while Paula was on hers. Barbara was knocked out by sleepiness while I played Okami, and then I started to talk to Paula. And the most random things came out. We laughed a lot XD
And today, monday, I just arrived school with her since her mother took me there, and as we were late, we sat in the secretary's couch and started to read a book which test would be in the next class. It was funny how people gathered there wanting to know the story, because no one read it. Yes. My Literature teacher has a very... boring taste for books.
Text wall, but I don't care! 8D If you got to read until now, here's a cookie for you. *runs*
sexta-feira, 28 de maio de 2010
Thursday, friday... late at night
Ahhh, God. It was a busy week for me. I had classes and exams all the days... and yesterday (thursday), I went to Rio again to take my passport since it was done. As I expected, my photography sucks. LOL. Well, I think that's normal.
As always, my father got lost when we were leaving the airport. The thing is that he's a good driver. And if he's like that, I wonder the driver I am. Jesus Christ save us, LOL. We left my mother at her university after lunch, and my sister at school. Then, we had to wait my grandfather at the shopping, because he was in consultation with his doctor. And so we could take the road to come home.
As expected again, we got lost inside the bank there while trying to draw out money from his account. This happens a lot XD But we laughed like crazy after that.
Back to the car, I just laid down and fell asleep... I spent the whole itineration sleeping. And I missed my math test, which was yesterday... Ahhh, my math teacher is going to kill me, but I didn't have any day to get my passport but yesterday.
Today, I was meant to have chemistry, english and spanish tests. But someone in the another class STOLE our teacher's test. Due to that, the test was cancelled. And the person, caught and sued for punitive damages. Well done. Now, the test is next tuesday, and it's gonna be a mass murder.
And, also! I managed to record my voice bank for UTAU! I did vocal warming and started. Exactly 444 syllables were recorded. Now, I have to configure her oto.inis. God give me patience for that, cause otos are really boring to do... Not hard, but really boring.
As always, my father got lost when we were leaving the airport. The thing is that he's a good driver. And if he's like that, I wonder the driver I am. Jesus Christ save us, LOL. We left my mother at her university after lunch, and my sister at school. Then, we had to wait my grandfather at the shopping, because he was in consultation with his doctor. And so we could take the road to come home.
As expected again, we got lost inside the bank there while trying to draw out money from his account. This happens a lot XD But we laughed like crazy after that.
Back to the car, I just laid down and fell asleep... I spent the whole itineration sleeping. And I missed my math test, which was yesterday... Ahhh, my math teacher is going to kill me, but I didn't have any day to get my passport but yesterday.
Today, I was meant to have chemistry, english and spanish tests. But someone in the another class STOLE our teacher's test. Due to that, the test was cancelled. And the person, caught and sued for punitive damages. Well done. Now, the test is next tuesday, and it's gonna be a mass murder.
And, also! I managed to record my voice bank for UTAU! I did vocal warming and started. Exactly 444 syllables were recorded. Now, I have to configure her oto.inis. God give me patience for that, cause otos are really boring to do... Not hard, but really boring.
domingo, 23 de maio de 2010
Layout + stuff
As you can see, I changed the layout. I couldn't do myself one *I can't get the damn coding right*, so I just put up the pic I used to the intended one. I drew it based off Kagamine Rin's Meltdown PV :3
Well, Thursday, I went to the cinema to watch Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton. Jesus Christ! D: I didn't think it could be this amazing! The White Kingdom was beautiful! It was so impeccably white and bright my eyes almost bled (and in 3D), but it was indeed beautiful! I could live there *¬* And the White Queen was very pretty :C
About the Hearts Kingdom, it was awesome too, of course! And Helena Bonham Carter's giant head scared me XD She played a very good queen, also, I couldn't expect something different from her.
I thought Johnny Depp was ugly as the Mad Hatter when I saw the movie poster, but watching the movie proved me wrong. He was awesome, and I just felt sorry for that poor man that was the Hatter he played. I'm his fan, of course! :D
When I first saw the girl that would play Alice, I thought she was a bit ugly. LOL. Again, I was wrong, she was lovely! :) And reminded me of a friend I had.
BUT THE CHESHIRE CAT! D: It was so... D: I want that cat. LOL It was awesome, beautiful, NAH! D: Its eyes were sooo hipnotic :'D Its fur seemed so real and fluffy, and... ;_; *ok, let's stop. LOL*
I really loved it <3 And I still want a Cheshire cat for me :C
On Friday, I almost couldn't go to school. When I arrived at my building's front door, I found out it was broken and would not open. I tried the switch that usually opens it, and nothing. A girl that arrived this time, tried her keys (as I don't have this door's key), and nothing.
She was very upset with this, while I was trying to think and failing miserably. LOL. Then I realized we could try to get out by the garage gateway. But the door which led to it was also locked. AHHHHH, LOL. She ran to her apartment to get the key, so she could unlock the door and her mother's car to get the control of the garage's gateway. Wow. Then we could be off there. I thanked her and ran to school... I had to sneak in math classes. Oh, life. MAYBE IT WAS DESTINY AND *is hit by a rock in the head and knocked off*
Later, me and my group partners went to Barbara's house to start searching our school work about World Cup. We chose England, as all the other good countries were already taken. But... England just won ONE cup, which one was placed in England itself... Wow... At least, England isn't like Japan, Japan isn't a good football player, since we didn't find ANYTHING about Japan in the cup. What made us to change the country.
After this, we played a little on Barbara's PS2. I defeated Pelagia, the twelfth colossus, finally, and then Paula put Rule of Rose for us to start playing with her, since she wanted to start playing this game with me and Barbara. The game seems very good, the only thing that pisses me off is that Jennifer is so slow! Running with her wastes a lot of time. And that children scared me a lot... We managed to enter the house where two children were beating something in the front of, but we couldn't find any save point in such a hurry.
And when these storyline parts showed up, I couldn't help myself and started reading them in a calm and still crazy way, which made us laugh XD Barbara had an appointment, so we waited for Paula's father there while I told her a dream I had in a place very similar we were.
Ah, good times, I liked that dream 8D I chased someone the whole dream in a heavy rain, but I liked it, looked like a videogame.
Texwall post is textwall :D
Well, Thursday, I went to the cinema to watch Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton. Jesus Christ! D: I didn't think it could be this amazing! The White Kingdom was beautiful! It was so impeccably white and bright my eyes almost bled (and in 3D), but it was indeed beautiful! I could live there *¬* And the White Queen was very pretty :C
About the Hearts Kingdom, it was awesome too, of course! And Helena Bonham Carter's giant head scared me XD She played a very good queen, also, I couldn't expect something different from her.
I thought Johnny Depp was ugly as the Mad Hatter when I saw the movie poster, but watching the movie proved me wrong. He was awesome, and I just felt sorry for that poor man that was the Hatter he played. I'm his fan, of course! :D
When I first saw the girl that would play Alice, I thought she was a bit ugly. LOL. Again, I was wrong, she was lovely! :) And reminded me of a friend I had.
BUT THE CHESHIRE CAT! D: It was so... D: I want that cat. LOL It was awesome, beautiful, NAH! D: Its eyes were sooo hipnotic :'D Its fur seemed so real and fluffy, and... ;_; *ok, let's stop. LOL*
I really loved it <3 And I still want a Cheshire cat for me :C
On Friday, I almost couldn't go to school. When I arrived at my building's front door, I found out it was broken and would not open. I tried the switch that usually opens it, and nothing. A girl that arrived this time, tried her keys (as I don't have this door's key), and nothing.
She was very upset with this, while I was trying to think and failing miserably. LOL. Then I realized we could try to get out by the garage gateway. But the door which led to it was also locked. AHHHHH, LOL. She ran to her apartment to get the key, so she could unlock the door and her mother's car to get the control of the garage's gateway. Wow. Then we could be off there. I thanked her and ran to school... I had to sneak in math classes. Oh, life. MAYBE IT WAS DESTINY AND *is hit by a rock in the head and knocked off*
Later, me and my group partners went to Barbara's house to start searching our school work about World Cup. We chose England, as all the other good countries were already taken. But... England just won ONE cup, which one was placed in England itself... Wow... At least, England isn't like Japan, Japan isn't a good football player, since we didn't find ANYTHING about Japan in the cup. What made us to change the country.
After this, we played a little on Barbara's PS2. I defeated Pelagia, the twelfth colossus, finally, and then Paula put Rule of Rose for us to start playing with her, since she wanted to start playing this game with me and Barbara. The game seems very good, the only thing that pisses me off is that Jennifer is so slow! Running with her wastes a lot of time. And that children scared me a lot... We managed to enter the house where two children were beating something in the front of, but we couldn't find any save point in such a hurry.
And when these storyline parts showed up, I couldn't help myself and started reading them in a calm and still crazy way, which made us laugh XD Barbara had an appointment, so we waited for Paula's father there while I told her a dream I had in a place very similar we were.
Ah, good times, I liked that dream 8D I chased someone the whole dream in a heavy rain, but I liked it, looked like a videogame.
Texwall post is textwall :D
quarta-feira, 12 de maio de 2010
Wow.
I just got home a few minutes ago, I'm tired as hell, but I had fun. I went to another city to start my passport making, or else, I can't go anywhere outside the country. So, I met my mother and sister in their house, and then we went to the International Airport straight away.
Jesus Christ. That place is fucking amazing. Yes, I am a noob who didn't even step inside an airport until today. It was ENORMOUS *gasp*. It was funny how my dad and mom where arguing before we arrived, while he was driving.
"It's the way on left... NO, YOU TOOK RIGHT :U"
"I THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT, DAMMIT! :U"
"People, calm down..." > me
"Your dad is an air head ÒO"
"Hey, I'm not deaf, I can hear you! ÒO"
"LOL"
It may sound silly, but that's like old times. I missed this a bit, even knowing they'll never be like this once more. But you know what? My stepmother isn't like my mother, isn't funny as her, and will never be better than her. I'm 100% sure of this.
The rest was normal: fill in documents, show documents, show birth certificate, identity card... I was scared when the counter woman took my identity, she looked at it, then looked at me, as if she was doubting that person in the photo was really me. LOL. This scared me, really, I felt like a escaped prisoner.
After this proccess, we could have lunch. We walked kilometers *exaggerating* till we could reach Bob's XD It was when I realized how big that airport was... I saw some airplanes taking off... And I was like "*drools*". *NOOB* Oh, oh! When trying to reach Terminal two, we walked in those mats, they were giant... It was fun to walk backwards while it moved ahead *child* And to leave T2, I had to take a vehicle in there! XD The hall was enormous... And we would take too much time if we tried the mats again.
It seems the trip was completely boring, but I enjoyed it. I like things simple like this.
I had no sleep when going to the city *it took about 3 hours in the car*, but I was with my notebook, playing around with UTAU. Hope someday I'll manage to get it all about the program... and I have to record my voice bank c: For a while, I'll only play around...
Ahhh, I'm hungry~.
Jesus Christ. That place is fucking amazing. Yes, I am a noob who didn't even step inside an airport until today. It was ENORMOUS *gasp*. It was funny how my dad and mom where arguing before we arrived, while he was driving.
"It's the way on left... NO, YOU TOOK RIGHT :U"
"I THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT, DAMMIT! :U"
"People, calm down..." > me
"Your dad is an air head ÒO"
"Hey, I'm not deaf, I can hear you! ÒO"
"LOL"
It may sound silly, but that's like old times. I missed this a bit, even knowing they'll never be like this once more. But you know what? My stepmother isn't like my mother, isn't funny as her, and will never be better than her. I'm 100% sure of this.
The rest was normal: fill in documents, show documents, show birth certificate, identity card... I was scared when the counter woman took my identity, she looked at it, then looked at me, as if she was doubting that person in the photo was really me. LOL. This scared me, really, I felt like a escaped prisoner.
After this proccess, we could have lunch. We walked kilometers *exaggerating* till we could reach Bob's XD It was when I realized how big that airport was... I saw some airplanes taking off... And I was like "*drools*". *NOOB* Oh, oh! When trying to reach Terminal two, we walked in those mats, they were giant... It was fun to walk backwards while it moved ahead *child* And to leave T2, I had to take a vehicle in there! XD The hall was enormous... And we would take too much time if we tried the mats again.
It seems the trip was completely boring, but I enjoyed it. I like things simple like this.
I had no sleep when going to the city *it took about 3 hours in the car*, but I was with my notebook, playing around with UTAU. Hope someday I'll manage to get it all about the program... and I have to record my voice bank c: For a while, I'll only play around...
Ahhh, I'm hungry~.
domingo, 9 de maio de 2010
It is...
...It is raining outside. But in my mind it's sunny. It's a bit cold. But I feel warm. My hair is wet because I washed it. But I don't mind it, I feel comfortable.
And she said it was her fault. There's no such thing. There's no...
No. It's her fault. Because she's an amazing girl. No wonder why I fell in love with her. It's her fault because she's herself. And everything I would like to do, would say this and having her to stop blaming herself and worrying for non-existing things.
The one whose name I drew next to mine in that foggy window. I assume. And that's april 2009's memory. I'll never forget it. The one I didn't show this blog only because I write down my feelings and she would discover them (yes I'm silly). And that's the truth, among other truth.
If "you" are reading... I love you. So much :3 And as I said, I regret nothing, FUCK YEAH SEAKING! :U
What a cheesy post we have here. That's what happens when my mood isgay rainbowish good.
The rain outside got worse. But in my mind, it's still clear sun showing itself.
And she said it was her fault. There's no such thing. There's no...
No. It's her fault. Because she's an amazing girl. No wonder why I fell in love with her. It's her fault because she's herself. And everything I would like to do, would say this and having her to stop blaming herself and worrying for non-existing things.
The one whose name I drew next to mine in that foggy window. I assume. And that's april 2009's memory. I'll never forget it. The one I didn't show this blog only because I write down my feelings and she would discover them (yes I'm silly). And that's the truth, among other truth.
If "you" are reading... I love you. So much :3 And as I said, I regret nothing, FUCK YEAH SEAKING! :U
What a cheesy post we have here. That's what happens when my mood is
The rain outside got worse. But in my mind, it's still clear sun showing itself.
quarta-feira, 28 de abril de 2010
Voiceless
No, I didn't mean speechless. Voiceless is what I meant. Today I woke up with no voice at all, and found out my immunity was fuckin* low because of my allergy. Ah, the autumn. Its wet weather always knocks me out.
I could hang on the first two classes this morning because of the drops grandma gave me, but I felt really ill when the break between classes came. Then I went to the secretary and fell on a chair. There I chatted with one of my classmates (who was feeling sick too), and he's cool. Never stopped to talk to him.
After that I could go home, accompanied by grandma. Then I spent the whole day coughing, sniffing and all. I hope I'll get better tomorrow... I have a big test to do.
...And I want my voice back. It's boring to communicate using gestual language, lip reading and notes.
I could hang on the first two classes this morning because of the drops grandma gave me, but I felt really ill when the break between classes came. Then I went to the secretary and fell on a chair. There I chatted with one of my classmates (who was feeling sick too), and he's cool. Never stopped to talk to him.
After that I could go home, accompanied by grandma. Then I spent the whole day coughing, sniffing and all. I hope I'll get better tomorrow... I have a big test to do.
...And I want my voice back. It's boring to communicate using gestual language, lip reading and notes.
terça-feira, 27 de abril de 2010
Braindead
Jesus Christ! I just got home after a giant test and, dude, it ate my brain completely. The answer card was enormous. When I looked at it I knew what I should expect. I spent 1 hour and 30 minutes doing it, 20 pages, a lot of text. After this I can be sure I'm very patient.
Sunday was AWESOME! I just got there and entered the Anime Room, plunged into a giant cushion and watched what they were featuring. I was late to watch D.Gray-Man (baw :C I'm a big DGM fan...), but could watch half episode. After, they displayed Bleach (just the chapter I stopped in the manga. FU-, spoilers) and then Fairy Tail, which reminded me a lot of One Piece, but I liked it; it's not this bad.
Then I got to lunch at Paula's and learned how to eat using hashi! *noob* I eat even slower with them, but I did it pretty well. And, lol, I trained with Cup Noodles. *loves it* After lunch, we rested a bit, and she invited me to play something, and I replied: "SHADOW OF THE COLOSSUS *¬*" xD
I defeated the 11th (Celosia) and almost defeated 12th (Pelagia) this day. With Celosia, I took a while to arrive where it resides, and when I saw it... I knew it was small, but you have to agree: small colossus are scary as hell. And fast. It was not hard, but the time I lost afraid of it (I believe Celosia is a "her") was priceless. And the time I kept falling of the temple's edge too.
About Pelagia, when I figured out what to do, Paula told me to hurry because we had to head back to the Party. Then I stabbed it at least three times, and saved at the shrine. Someday I'll continue this fight, and then... Forward to 13th (Phalanx)! Phalanx isn't scary or such, it's very calm... The only colossus which doesn't attack you even if you attack it. I like it, one of my fave.
PS: Not interesting post-note, but I started to play D.Gray-Man: Kami no Shitotachi for Nintendo DS (yes, I use emulator). It's a bit boring, and all you have to do is... DRAW LINES! Geez, lol. But I found it... amusing. The thing is: playing in a language you understand only a few words (and the characters names) and have to figure out everything they say really isn't this easy. I just talk to everyone and say はい ("yes") to every question.
Now you can imagine... "Do you want to sell yourself and become a maid (regardless Allen being male)? - Yes" LOL
Sunday was AWESOME! I just got there and entered the Anime Room, plunged into a giant cushion and watched what they were featuring. I was late to watch D.Gray-Man (baw :C I'm a big DGM fan...), but could watch half episode. After, they displayed Bleach (just the chapter I stopped in the manga. FU-, spoilers) and then Fairy Tail, which reminded me a lot of One Piece, but I liked it; it's not this bad.
Then I got to lunch at Paula's and learned how to eat using hashi! *noob* I eat even slower with them, but I did it pretty well. And, lol, I trained with Cup Noodles. *loves it* After lunch, we rested a bit, and she invited me to play something, and I replied: "SHADOW OF THE COLOSSUS *¬*" xD
I defeated the 11th (Celosia) and almost defeated 12th (Pelagia) this day. With Celosia, I took a while to arrive where it resides, and when I saw it... I knew it was small, but you have to agree: small colossus are scary as hell. And fast. It was not hard, but the time I lost afraid of it (I believe Celosia is a "her") was priceless. And the time I kept falling of the temple's edge too.
About Pelagia, when I figured out what to do, Paula told me to hurry because we had to head back to the Party. Then I stabbed it at least three times, and saved at the shrine. Someday I'll continue this fight, and then... Forward to 13th (Phalanx)! Phalanx isn't scary or such, it's very calm... The only colossus which doesn't attack you even if you attack it. I like it, one of my fave.
PS: Not interesting post-note, but I started to play D.Gray-Man: Kami no Shitotachi for Nintendo DS (yes, I use emulator). It's a bit boring, and all you have to do is... DRAW LINES! Geez, lol. But I found it... amusing. The thing is: playing in a language you understand only a few words (and the characters names) and have to figure out everything they say really isn't this easy. I just talk to everyone and say はい ("yes") to every question.
Now you can imagine... "Do you want to sell yourself and become a maid (regardless Allen being male)? - Yes" LOL
sábado, 24 de abril de 2010
Nhhhn
Nah, my head hurts! But today was fun. I decided to go out (it happens once in a millenium) to enjoy myself a little. I don't want to think about my worries. Later, I went to a Japanese Party that my city is having this week, since japaneses were one of the people who colonized this city.
(two years ago, I managed to sneak in Germany's Party with friends... that was a nice one)
It definitely raised my mood. I met Paula there, at the Anime Room. Then we went to a stroll in the place, she almost tripping on her sandals (I still don't know how geishas can walk on those all the time). Some people there performed a dancing presentation, which I recorded with my camera. It was very interesting! And it was funny how the 3 year old sensei's daughter was leading the grown ups. She was really cute.
Then we realized we were starving :D' We bought some pastry, but ended up buying more food. I tried yakisoba for the first time ever, and it felt... I really thought I wouldn't like any japanese food! I liked it very, very much, I didn't expect something so tasty. But I still don't go well with sushi. Heh.
We met another friend there (Barbara), and she was all like "Later they will bring a karaoke! *-* *-* *-*" Then she just vanished. Oh, Barbara. As always. LOL
After a piano concert *wow, very fancy, isn't it?*, we ended up in the Anime Room again. There was a programmation of a lot of animes, each one's first episode. I watched Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu (and found it out to be indeed funny. I didn't like it before), Tegami Bachi (a bit confusing, but liked it), Nabari no Ou (loved it, enough said. I plan on watch it someday!), Full Metal Alchemist (knew it, never watched. Paula was like: "Ed *¬*", LOL) and a nameless one I couldn't read the name because my cellphone started ringing.
Tomorrow is the last day of the party, and sure as hell I'm going to drop by there again. And plus, they'll have D.Gray-Man on the Anime Room, and that's just magical. *shot*
(two years ago, I managed to sneak in Germany's Party with friends... that was a nice one)
It definitely raised my mood. I met Paula there, at the Anime Room. Then we went to a stroll in the place, she almost tripping on her sandals (I still don't know how geishas can walk on those all the time). Some people there performed a dancing presentation, which I recorded with my camera. It was very interesting! And it was funny how the 3 year old sensei's daughter was leading the grown ups. She was really cute.
Then we realized we were starving :D' We bought some pastry, but ended up buying more food. I tried yakisoba for the first time ever, and it felt... I really thought I wouldn't like any japanese food! I liked it very, very much, I didn't expect something so tasty. But I still don't go well with sushi. Heh.
We met another friend there (Barbara), and she was all like "Later they will bring a karaoke! *-* *-* *-*" Then she just vanished. Oh, Barbara. As always. LOL
After a piano concert *wow, very fancy, isn't it?*, we ended up in the Anime Room again. There was a programmation of a lot of animes, each one's first episode. I watched Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu (and found it out to be indeed funny. I didn't like it before), Tegami Bachi (a bit confusing, but liked it), Nabari no Ou (loved it, enough said. I plan on watch it someday!), Full Metal Alchemist (knew it, never watched. Paula was like: "Ed *¬*", LOL) and a nameless one I couldn't read the name because my cellphone started ringing.
Tomorrow is the last day of the party, and sure as hell I'm going to drop by there again. And plus, they'll have D.Gray-Man on the Anime Room, and that's just magical. *shot*
terça-feira, 13 de abril de 2010
Ahhh, I can't understand.
I wonder why things sometimes seem to walk backwards. I was surprised, really.
I was meant to go to USA next year, to study, work, and then, live there. But I didn't know it could be this soon. August. I have until August to decide it... or better: on August, it'll be classes start there, and if I want to study on Florida, I HAVE to be there, on school, this day. It caught me by surprise.
I... I don't want to leave! Not yet! I just... don't feel ready to leave. It feels like throwing everything through the window, leaving everything behind with no care...
And... just when... I could doubt if I really like that someone, in that special way... It comes to my knowledge I have no doubt and just try to avoid thinking I'm not mistaken. Now that I won't be able to see this person easily as I could before if I "go away".
I don't know... things can walk backwards again, and maybe I won't go this year, as I really planned. I love my school, I love my classmates, I love my friends... I love... ...
I need time to think... It'll be great to my future, working there. I need time... time... I wish time could stop.
I think it's like I told to my father. Unfortunately, things aren't as we would like them to be, and aren't easy as we would like them to be.
I'll think... I'll find a solution. I know I can do it. At least, to meet them before I go. Yes.
I can do it.
I was meant to go to USA next year, to study, work, and then, live there. But I didn't know it could be this soon. August. I have until August to decide it... or better: on August, it'll be classes start there, and if I want to study on Florida, I HAVE to be there, on school, this day. It caught me by surprise.
I... I don't want to leave! Not yet! I just... don't feel ready to leave. It feels like throwing everything through the window, leaving everything behind with no care...
And... just when... I could doubt if I really like that someone, in that special way... It comes to my knowledge I have no doubt and just try to avoid thinking I'm not mistaken. Now that I won't be able to see this person easily as I could before if I "go away".
I don't know... things can walk backwards again, and maybe I won't go this year, as I really planned. I love my school, I love my classmates, I love my friends... I love... ...
I need time to think... It'll be great to my future, working there. I need time... time... I wish time could stop.
I think it's like I told to my father. Unfortunately, things aren't as we would like them to be, and aren't easy as we would like them to be.
I'll think... I'll find a solution. I know I can do it. At least, to meet them before I go. Yes.
I can do it.
sexta-feira, 9 de abril de 2010
That was the week I was hoping for!
Oh, my! I haven't shown up until now, my bad. (not that you care thiiiis muuuuuch, but still...)
The week which ends today was the best week of my life. Seriously! I had nice days before, but not a whole week! I feel so excited! ...And very tired, lol.
I'll separate the days resuming the story... I hope this won't take too long (or become a text wall).
Monday
At first, I was like: "Another school day, another boring school day...". I was very wrong. It was FAR from boring! Our first class was Biology, and we didn't have class at all.
We started talking about random things, such as past year memes (he wasn't our teacher past year), and this took 45 minutes! We laughed so much with him and our stories! XD I asked my friend to film it... This is totally going to youtube...!
Tuesday
The most normal day of the week. I was a bit bored, but found out I understand the new Math subject. Good for me!
Wednesday
Okay, this one was awesome. We had Physic Education class, but... of 32 students, 9 didn't forget their uniform. So, everyone to the library! Detention. LOL
I was there just because I had no place to stay during the class (I have medical certificate, so I don't participate). As the students were playing word games, watching TV (we have one in our school's library), I just opened my notebook, put my earphones, and started watching anime. Luckily it was with me on school this day.
After that, Text Production class. Teacher gave us an exercise on which you had to write a story using the elements it was giving you.
Such as woman, man, parasol, beach, meeting... She'll be terrorized when I show her my version.
('Cause I wanted to break the habit of writing straight love stories as everyone. The woman, in truth... well... when you truly love someone, their physic doesn't matter.)
Thursday
I did nothing on school. The thing I love the most to "do". My Math teacher seemed lazy like us this day, and gave us some exercises from our book, then said "See you next week, bye 8D". LOL. His voice makes me sleepy, he's so calm o_o
Friday
Amazing. Nuff' said. Truly amazing!
On English class today, we would present our works about the countries we chose. My group and I, no doubt, Japan. Suddenly I turned the leader of the group... So, I was meant to stand there in front of the class, reading all info we gathered about Japan on a Power Point file.
And this all dressed as a geisha.
I was having a nervous collapse. 30 minutes before the english class, me and my friend went to the coordinator's room to make-up my face, then, put the kimono on, the sandals...
I entered the video room with a fan covering my face. Then I just stood in the front of the data show screen, and closed the fan. Then Everyone went: "Oooooh O:" I greet everyone, (ohayo, minna-san, LOL), then, start the presentation, while the other group members were translating it to our language (portuguese).
When it was over... I fell on a chair and there I stayed all the time until the class end, with a group talking about New Zealand.
Everyone liked it very much! I feel very happy! Me, and my group!
Then, tour time! I went down the stairs (managing not to trip with that sandals), and started walking for the school. A guy stopped me to take a photo with him, LOL. Then we saw our biology teacher, and said "Come take a photo with me!!! 8D"
Then I undressed, put my normal clothes... But I didn't take off the make-up. And just walked home, with everyone in the street looking like "Wait, what???" XD
Arriving home... Well, I gave my stepmother a major scare. LOL. I swear I didn't mean to do so... But... It was funny, indeed.
...Fine. Text wall. LOL
The week which ends today was the best week of my life. Seriously! I had nice days before, but not a whole week! I feel so excited! ...And very tired, lol.
I'll separate the days resuming the story... I hope this won't take too long (or become a text wall).
Monday
At first, I was like: "Another school day, another boring school day...". I was very wrong. It was FAR from boring! Our first class was Biology, and we didn't have class at all.
We started talking about random things, such as past year memes (he wasn't our teacher past year), and this took 45 minutes! We laughed so much with him and our stories! XD I asked my friend to film it... This is totally going to youtube...!
Tuesday
The most normal day of the week. I was a bit bored, but found out I understand the new Math subject. Good for me!
Wednesday
Okay, this one was awesome. We had Physic Education class, but... of 32 students, 9 didn't forget their uniform. So, everyone to the library! Detention. LOL
I was there just because I had no place to stay during the class (I have medical certificate, so I don't participate). As the students were playing word games, watching TV (we have one in our school's library), I just opened my notebook, put my earphones, and started watching anime. Luckily it was with me on school this day.
After that, Text Production class. Teacher gave us an exercise on which you had to write a story using the elements it was giving you.
Such as woman, man, parasol, beach, meeting... She'll be terrorized when I show her my version.
('Cause I wanted to break the habit of writing straight love stories as everyone. The woman, in truth... well... when you truly love someone, their physic doesn't matter.)
Thursday
I did nothing on school. The thing I love the most to "do". My Math teacher seemed lazy like us this day, and gave us some exercises from our book, then said "See you next week, bye 8D". LOL. His voice makes me sleepy, he's so calm o_o
Friday
Amazing. Nuff' said. Truly amazing!
On English class today, we would present our works about the countries we chose. My group and I, no doubt, Japan. Suddenly I turned the leader of the group... So, I was meant to stand there in front of the class, reading all info we gathered about Japan on a Power Point file.
And this all dressed as a geisha.
I was having a nervous collapse. 30 minutes before the english class, me and my friend went to the coordinator's room to make-up my face, then, put the kimono on, the sandals...
I entered the video room with a fan covering my face. Then I just stood in the front of the data show screen, and closed the fan. Then Everyone went: "Oooooh O:" I greet everyone, (ohayo, minna-san, LOL), then, start the presentation, while the other group members were translating it to our language (portuguese).
When it was over... I fell on a chair and there I stayed all the time until the class end, with a group talking about New Zealand.
Everyone liked it very much! I feel very happy! Me, and my group!
Then, tour time! I went down the stairs (managing not to trip with that sandals), and started walking for the school. A guy stopped me to take a photo with him, LOL. Then we saw our biology teacher, and said "Come take a photo with me!!! 8D"
Then I undressed, put my normal clothes... But I didn't take off the make-up. And just walked home, with everyone in the street looking like "Wait, what???" XD
Arriving home... Well, I gave my stepmother a major scare. LOL. I swear I didn't mean to do so... But... It was funny, indeed.
...Fine. Text wall. LOL
terça-feira, 30 de março de 2010
Aw, God!
I'M BACK! HOORAY! Not back from any place, back from my artblock/hiatus! AHHHH! I feel so happy *OTL* I was so worried with tests, school and not having time to do anything, that I spent a long time without touching in a pencil to draw. Only to write notes with school purposes.
I managed to do a full sketch today. I missed drawing details and looking at them and saying "They look great". Ahhh~ Now, I'll have holidays, so this means: NON-STOP DRAWING! WHOO! *falls from the chair*
Today is my last school day on this week, I'll have thursday, friday, and weekend to sleep and draw <3 Can't believe it. Maybe I can work on something! I miss drawing with my tablet, all I was doing was on paper...
At least, I expect to sleep and draw. My dad and my stepmother will be home. Dad isn't a problem. But she is. If she wake me up at 10AM to do the dishes, I'll kill someone. XD I talk seriously.
Now, gonna get some sleep. I want to lazy in my bed.
PS: I started to watch Jigoku Shoujo and Shakugan no Shana these days. I knew I would enjoy them! Shakugan no Shana's first open (Hishoku no Sora) can't get out of my head...! Um... And Enma Ai... reminds me of... <3
I managed to do a full sketch today. I missed drawing details and looking at them and saying "They look great". Ahhh~ Now, I'll have holidays, so this means: NON-STOP DRAWING! WHOO! *falls from the chair*
Today is my last school day on this week, I'll have thursday, friday, and weekend to sleep and draw <3 Can't believe it. Maybe I can work on something! I miss drawing with my tablet, all I was doing was on paper...
At least, I expect to sleep and draw. My dad and my stepmother will be home. Dad isn't a problem. But she is. If she wake me up at 10AM to do the dishes, I'll kill someone. XD I talk seriously.
Now, gonna get some sleep. I want to lazy in my bed.
PS: I started to watch Jigoku Shoujo and Shakugan no Shana these days. I knew I would enjoy them! Shakugan no Shana's first open (Hishoku no Sora) can't get out of my head...! Um... And Enma Ai... reminds me of... <3
sexta-feira, 26 de março de 2010
Test disaster
Friday! Can't believe it! After a loooong week of tests, I'm finally free. Physics was a disaster; the whole class asked our teacher to cancel it and make another one because everyone didn't get any correct question... at first he said he would do so, but today we were informed it won't be canceled. Oh. Chemistry was terrible, too.
But Math. Math, this one really got everyone, it was a true carnage. I don't blame our teacher, but... WTF were those questions?! GAH! It was about the subject he said we had to sudy, but... we have never seen such questions! Arithmetic and Geometric Progression aren't difficult, I just don't know what he did there.
[Altough, my classmates panicking about it was rather funny.
- No one got its answer, cancel the last question, please! D8
- No 8D (teacher)
- But! If no one did it...
- There's something wrong...!
- Yes... the students... *the one who got a wrong question, but still can't help it*
- LOL, WHUT! (my friend)]
Ahhh. I remember now. I have a Literature test next Monday about a book our teacher asked us to read and count as the second bimester grade. That book is SO boring I didn't pass off chapter 4 in one month. ONE MONTH IS A LOT OF TIME! It makes me very sleepy when I read it. Now I know what to do when I'm having insomnia.
...I just can't understand why she always give us boring books... Her taste surely is dubious...
Well, whatever. I'll manage to force myself to read it in two days. My left wrist still hurts a lot, so, I won't keep writing too much.
Now, off to hunt shiny leaves on pokémon Soul Silver! I'll get my leaves crown for my Yulle in no time like this. (she's my Vulpix)
See ya!
But Math. Math, this one really got everyone, it was a true carnage. I don't blame our teacher, but... WTF were those questions?! GAH! It was about the subject he said we had to sudy, but... we have never seen such questions! Arithmetic and Geometric Progression aren't difficult, I just don't know what he did there.
[Altough, my classmates panicking about it was rather funny.
- No one got its answer, cancel the last question, please! D8
- No 8D (teacher)
- But! If no one did it...
- There's something wrong...!
- Yes... the students... *the one who got a wrong question, but still can't help it*
- LOL, WHUT! (my friend)]
Ahhh. I remember now. I have a Literature test next Monday about a book our teacher asked us to read and count as the second bimester grade. That book is SO boring I didn't pass off chapter 4 in one month. ONE MONTH IS A LOT OF TIME! It makes me very sleepy when I read it. Now I know what to do when I'm having insomnia.
...I just can't understand why she always give us boring books... Her taste surely is dubious...
Well, whatever. I'll manage to force myself to read it in two days. My left wrist still hurts a lot, so, I won't keep writing too much.
Now, off to hunt shiny leaves on pokémon Soul Silver! I'll get my leaves crown for my Yulle in no time like this. (she's my Vulpix)
See ya!
quarta-feira, 24 de março de 2010
Weekend + week stuff
...Didn't I say Rec would be terrible? At least, when you watch a scary movie, you know what to expect, or I really should be disturbed by it. And, happy thing, I believe there will be a 3 one, since the ending was so vague. Yay. *facepalm*
Oh, yes. The weekend at my friend's house was really helpful. Nothing better than being sick and staying awake until 4AM trying to quit video games.
And, I didn't know .Hack//G.U. was so cool and addicting! She got me to play it, and my opinion it was too hard for me just disappeared (meh, that was just me being lazy. I wanted to play SotC... but Hack was a good choice, too!) When I managed to make a Ren Geki the first time, I was like "now I'll use this as hell!". And it was so cool! I loved the chims, poor thing we have to kick them...
(And, is it me, or Haseo really looks like Allen Walker from D.Gray-Man? I didn't stop saying it while I played. LOL. And Atoli reminds me of Tinkerbell... *shot*)
Still talking about video games. I played my Wii Resort today for the first time and it's... just... amazing. It was annoying to play with my right hand (I'm right-handed, but playing Wii, preference is left), but since, I have no idea how exactly, I opened my wrist, it's no use... My right shoulder problem proved to be really healing, after all this effort I did playing. I became pro in Swordplay, but my favorite is Skydiving. [/you didn't ask]
Today, classes were very interesting. I'm having my exams, but the school decided students aren't allowed to go home after finishing tests anymore, so we have classes, what was a pain. But in Text Production class, we had a debate about homosexuality.
It was fun because all my classmates actually don't know how to explicate their opinions. We talked, we complained, we yelled. I wasn't intending to say anything, but I just couldn't keep mute while they went crazy XD It was very interesting... specially when the boys talked about it with no preconcept.
I have to study math, but I don't wantttt tooooo... D: And then, chemistry. Ahhh, I want to sleep. But I'd rather to get a good grade than sleeping...
PS: God, Lucky Star opening is addicting!
Oh, yes. The weekend at my friend's house was really helpful. Nothing better than being sick and staying awake until 4AM trying to quit video games.
And, I didn't know .Hack//G.U. was so cool and addicting! She got me to play it, and my opinion it was too hard for me just disappeared (meh, that was just me being lazy. I wanted to play SotC... but Hack was a good choice, too!) When I managed to make a Ren Geki the first time, I was like "now I'll use this as hell!". And it was so cool! I loved the chims, poor thing we have to kick them...
(And, is it me, or Haseo really looks like Allen Walker from D.Gray-Man? I didn't stop saying it while I played. LOL. And Atoli reminds me of Tinkerbell... *shot*)
Still talking about video games. I played my Wii Resort today for the first time and it's... just... amazing. It was annoying to play with my right hand (I'm right-handed, but playing Wii, preference is left), but since, I have no idea how exactly, I opened my wrist, it's no use... My right shoulder problem proved to be really healing, after all this effort I did playing. I became pro in Swordplay, but my favorite is Skydiving. [/you didn't ask]
Today, classes were very interesting. I'm having my exams, but the school decided students aren't allowed to go home after finishing tests anymore, so we have classes, what was a pain. But in Text Production class, we had a debate about homosexuality.
It was fun because all my classmates actually don't know how to explicate their opinions. We talked, we complained, we yelled. I wasn't intending to say anything, but I just couldn't keep mute while they went crazy XD It was very interesting... specially when the boys talked about it with no preconcept.
I have to study math, but I don't wantttt tooooo... D: And then, chemistry. Ahhh, I want to sleep. But I'd rather to get a good grade than sleeping...
PS: God, Lucky Star opening is addicting!
quinta-feira, 18 de março de 2010
Stress someday will kill me.
I disappeared again, whooo. Yes, I'm aware no one actually read this, but, whatever~
That's right. Thanks God tomorrow is Friday. I'll have to watch a movie in Spanish classes, the worst movie ever, and it even has a "2" on its name, so I know what I expect to see. I'm talking about Rec. It disturbs me so easily, but, believe me or not, I'm not afraid of it. I'm eager to watch it. (maybe I like to suffer?)
My aunt is coming back to USA tomorrow at night. She'll take my little sister to my mom's house (she lives in the same country as me, but not the same city). AND THEN. Chaos will stop in this house, hopefully. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT IS TO GET HOME AFTER SCHOOL, TIRED (because you had no sleep last nights), AND THEN ALL YOU CAN SEE ARE CHILDREN RUNNING AROUND YOU SCREAMING AND STOMPING THE FLOOR LIKE THEY WERE HIPPOS.
Cahem. Pardon me, I got angry.~
Man, I'm tired of this chaos! And I can't even lock myself in my room, my dad complains that I do not socialize with my family members. What family members. My 'Step-family' doesn't need any social interaction by me. At least, I won't kill anyone. No matter how hard I wish to, I wouldn't want to meet jail this young. :3
Forget them. And those dem... I mean, children. I like my cousin and sister, but when they're all together... If you like children, trust me, you would stop liking them having to deal with my stepmother's children.
I need to sleep, Christ! But I have no sleepiness now, and I'm sure I won't later. Don't know what is happening, maybe stress is knocking me out slowly. I really don't feel very well... yesterday I fainted for 'no reason' (low blood pressure, I guess), and I almost spit fire when talking to others. LOL, poor people...
It won't last this much, I hope. My stress is due to family ridiculous behavior, and as I'm going to my friend's house to spend a weekend... Our school work preparations will help me to forget this XD Now, coming back to my cards game. No, I'm not addicted *cough* It helps me to relieve myself.
And besides all this stress... receiving cellphone messages from her makes me feel happy and loved... [/don't mind me]
Behold giant post! YAY!
That's right. Thanks God tomorrow is Friday. I'll have to watch a movie in Spanish classes, the worst movie ever, and it even has a "2" on its name, so I know what I expect to see. I'm talking about Rec. It disturbs me so easily, but, believe me or not, I'm not afraid of it. I'm eager to watch it. (maybe I like to suffer?)
My aunt is coming back to USA tomorrow at night. She'll take my little sister to my mom's house (she lives in the same country as me, but not the same city). AND THEN. Chaos will stop in this house, hopefully. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT IS TO GET HOME AFTER SCHOOL, TIRED (because you had no sleep last nights), AND THEN ALL YOU CAN SEE ARE CHILDREN RUNNING AROUND YOU SCREAMING AND STOMPING THE FLOOR LIKE THEY WERE HIPPOS.
Cahem. Pardon me, I got angry.~
Man, I'm tired of this chaos! And I can't even lock myself in my room, my dad complains that I do not socialize with my family members. What family members. My 'Step-family' doesn't need any social interaction by me. At least, I won't kill anyone. No matter how hard I wish to, I wouldn't want to meet jail this young. :3
Forget them. And those dem... I mean, children. I like my cousin and sister, but when they're all together... If you like children, trust me, you would stop liking them having to deal with my stepmother's children.
I need to sleep, Christ! But I have no sleepiness now, and I'm sure I won't later. Don't know what is happening, maybe stress is knocking me out slowly. I really don't feel very well... yesterday I fainted for 'no reason' (low blood pressure, I guess), and I almost spit fire when talking to others. LOL, poor people...
It won't last this much, I hope. My stress is due to family ridiculous behavior, and as I'm going to my friend's house to spend a weekend... Our school work preparations will help me to forget this XD Now, coming back to my cards game. No, I'm not addicted *cough* It helps me to relieve myself.
And besides all this stress... receiving cellphone messages from her makes me feel happy and loved... [/don't mind me]
Behold giant post! YAY!
domingo, 14 de março de 2010
Fun in family?
I didn't post anything in... one week, LOL. Not that I care that much, or not that YOU care this much.
My aunt arrived from USA friday day 6. I was arriving home as I always do, then she suddenly appears and opens the elevator's door and I was like WTF while she kil... I mean, hugged me and carried me inside the apartment tripping in everything. I earned a Nintendo Wii! Now I just need to wait my Okami to be delivered.
Last wednesday I had an allergy crisis. I had fever and non-stop coughing, but gladly I felt better thursday at morning, because I had a Math test! I was so nervous, but I guess I did pretty well.
Yesterday, more relatives arrived here. My grandma's birthday party is today, and they all came to see my aunt, cousin, and all. I have no idea how we get a bed for everyone! Now we're 15 in one average apartment.
But I'm having non-stop fun! Yesterday, while I was drawing, my parents and never-ending cousins (all of them are adults, but, oh) went to a snooker bar to have some fun. 2AM they arrived laughing and telling us (me and stepsister) what they did and saw. I laughed until my death, now I just did some resurrect to post here (?).
Today, more relatives are coming! Oh, my, LOL. Then we will be 18 in total... I'm going now to the party. I'm sure I'll have fun, but for now I'll just keep with my cards game. And I need a 3 of clumps.
My aunt arrived from USA friday day 6. I was arriving home as I always do, then she suddenly appears and opens the elevator's door and I was like WTF while she kil... I mean, hugged me and carried me inside the apartment tripping in everything. I earned a Nintendo Wii! Now I just need to wait my Okami to be delivered.
Last wednesday I had an allergy crisis. I had fever and non-stop coughing, but gladly I felt better thursday at morning, because I had a Math test! I was so nervous, but I guess I did pretty well.
Yesterday, more relatives arrived here. My grandma's birthday party is today, and they all came to see my aunt, cousin, and all. I have no idea how we get a bed for everyone! Now we're 15 in one average apartment.
But I'm having non-stop fun! Yesterday, while I was drawing, my parents and never-ending cousins (all of them are adults, but, oh) went to a snooker bar to have some fun. 2AM they arrived laughing and telling us (me and stepsister) what they did and saw. I laughed until my death, now I just did some resurrect to post here (?).
Today, more relatives are coming! Oh, my, LOL. Then we will be 18 in total... I'm going now to the party. I'm sure I'll have fun, but for now I'll just keep with my cards game. And I need a 3 of clumps.
sábado, 27 de fevereiro de 2010
Not a party person
I arrived home a few minutes ago, I was on a birthday party... Well... It was quite boring. I met my stepmother's whole family, and I'm anti-social already (as my dad states), so everything I did was sit on a chair and stay there all the party. C: Practical person LOL
Then my dad joined me with a face like "I hate parties and dancing", and I looked at him like "I told you." Everything our relatives saw: me and him in the table the whole damn time chatting and refusing dancing invites. I feel glad I'm alike my dad in at least one thing.
I didn't have the need to get amused. Just watching other people dancing all happy was enough to make me feel right. There was many people making a circle, jumping and shouting. Then one of them went to the middle of the circle, danced, and everyone applauded XD Then another one... And so on. It seemed they were having a lot of fun, what made me feel... nostalgic.
It really turned me on when the DJ played Umbrella (I like this song, m'kay? Brings back memories) and I Gotta Feeling. No, I didn't dance XD My stepmother almost broke my arm trying to take me to the dance floor, as I was holding onto my chair, LOL.
After that, people crowded in our table... like, they just came sitting there from hell. I guess they were a bit drunken. Everything, I mean everything, was a reason to a toast. I lol'd at this, I was the only one who didn't join, but it was hilarious. "Yay for the birthday girl! WHEEEE!!! Yay for our family! WHEEEE!!! Yay for that ant in the floor! WHEEEEEE!!! Yay for the rainbow atoms (???)! WHEEEEE!!!"
Then the DJ started to play songs my dad hates, and he just told me: "I'm leaving :U". I was tired of that place too, so I followed him and here I am. Changing my clothes. I think I'm so tired (slept 4AM to wake up 9AM) I simply tripped on my boots (I threw them randomly when I took them off) and fell to the floor while trying to wear my pants. Yeah... *sniff* I must sleep now.
Another giant post. GODAMMIT! Oh, yes, I'm still trying to set the layout... I'll do it. Someday.
Then my dad joined me with a face like "I hate parties and dancing", and I looked at him like "I told you." Everything our relatives saw: me and him in the table the whole damn time chatting and refusing dancing invites. I feel glad I'm alike my dad in at least one thing.
I didn't have the need to get amused. Just watching other people dancing all happy was enough to make me feel right. There was many people making a circle, jumping and shouting. Then one of them went to the middle of the circle, danced, and everyone applauded XD Then another one... And so on. It seemed they were having a lot of fun, what made me feel... nostalgic.
It really turned me on when the DJ played Umbrella (I like this song, m'kay? Brings back memories) and I Gotta Feeling. No, I didn't dance XD My stepmother almost broke my arm trying to take me to the dance floor, as I was holding onto my chair, LOL.
After that, people crowded in our table... like, they just came sitting there from hell. I guess they were a bit drunken. Everything, I mean everything, was a reason to a toast. I lol'd at this, I was the only one who didn't join, but it was hilarious. "Yay for the birthday girl! WHEEEE!!! Yay for our family! WHEEEE!!! Yay for that ant in the floor! WHEEEEEE!!! Yay for the rainbow atoms (???)! WHEEEEE!!!"
Then the DJ started to play songs my dad hates, and he just told me: "I'm leaving :U". I was tired of that place too, so I followed him and here I am. Changing my clothes. I think I'm so tired (slept 4AM to wake up 9AM) I simply tripped on my boots (I threw them randomly when I took them off) and fell to the floor while trying to wear my pants. Yeah... *sniff* I must sleep now.
Another giant post. GODAMMIT! Oh, yes, I'm still trying to set the layout... I'll do it. Someday.
sexta-feira, 26 de fevereiro de 2010
Under Construction
Hi. Um... that's my first post here. This thing *open arms* is a blog I created just to kill time and to put my mind to work while relieving it from my usual stress and such. Yes, it may be very boring LOL
Yesterday it was raining heavily; in my mind as well. At least I could sleep in peace. The raindrops sound filled my head shoving my depressed thoughts away. Then I remembered that today I would have english/spanish classes and it would be lots of fun: I missed my teachers, and was very happy when I found out that they'll continue to give me classes.
I just fell asleep trying not to remember all those feelings; hugging my cat cushion proved to be effective.
After school, I forgot all the bad things I was feeling. I feel rather happy now. And, well, I didn't have any time to worry about such things... since I was locked outta my bedroom and needed to get in.
My grandmother has this custom of locking our bedroom...
(because of the children here, my stepmother's. They are mischievous and she doesn't want her things broken or anything like that. Me neither.)
But this time I wasn't with my keys. I think I panicked for... what, five minutes? Then I went to our house's maid yelling and complaining. *fails at solving things* My grandma went to a ball, and I was like "So, I'll go after her." My stepsister told me to wait. She had a better idea than mine; to try out the keys left in the house, usually one of them would fit.
The thing is: the only one which would ever fit was missing in the house. OTL Because I'm very lucky. *sarcasm smile*
I had to go out after her, but... not in my undies, right? So. My bedroom was locked and all my clothing was inside it~ Lucky person² I borrowed my stepsister jeans, but they were so tigh I couldn't even breath. So I invaded my father/stepmother's bedroom and stole her pants. LOL, she'll never know it, she hasn't to know it.
I ran like crazy to the Sindicate where the ball was and entered as my life depended on it. Then I found her and she was like
"Hoho, what are you doing here? 8D"
"You locked me out, granny..."
"I did? 8D"
It's funny how I was panicking and she was all happy XD I love my grandma. After that I had a normal afternoon hanging around. Come on, it's friday!
A crazy day, that fits me. I recognize my real self even more those days... I had forgotten how I was, but... now I seem to be "under repair" and slowly back to the way I used to be. I have bad memories and I miss someone, but it's just over when it's over or when you give up.
Probably who's reading (if it has someone reading) isn't understanding. There's no problem, it was a... momentaneous outburst.
God. First post and I exceeded my limit writing too much. I completely forgot how a blog could be fun replacing diaries.
Yesterday it was raining heavily; in my mind as well. At least I could sleep in peace. The raindrops sound filled my head shoving my depressed thoughts away. Then I remembered that today I would have english/spanish classes and it would be lots of fun: I missed my teachers, and was very happy when I found out that they'll continue to give me classes.
I just fell asleep trying not to remember all those feelings; hugging my cat cushion proved to be effective.
After school, I forgot all the bad things I was feeling. I feel rather happy now. And, well, I didn't have any time to worry about such things... since I was locked outta my bedroom and needed to get in.
My grandmother has this custom of locking our bedroom...
(because of the children here, my stepmother's. They are mischievous and she doesn't want her things broken or anything like that. Me neither.)
But this time I wasn't with my keys. I think I panicked for... what, five minutes? Then I went to our house's maid yelling and complaining. *fails at solving things* My grandma went to a ball, and I was like "So, I'll go after her." My stepsister told me to wait. She had a better idea than mine; to try out the keys left in the house, usually one of them would fit.
The thing is: the only one which would ever fit was missing in the house. OTL Because I'm very lucky. *sarcasm smile*
I had to go out after her, but... not in my undies, right? So. My bedroom was locked and all my clothing was inside it~ Lucky person² I borrowed my stepsister jeans, but they were so tigh I couldn't even breath. So I invaded my father/stepmother's bedroom and stole her pants. LOL, she'll never know it, she hasn't to know it.
I ran like crazy to the Sindicate where the ball was and entered as my life depended on it. Then I found her and she was like
"Hoho, what are you doing here? 8D"
"You locked me out, granny..."
"I did? 8D"
It's funny how I was panicking and she was all happy XD I love my grandma. After that I had a normal afternoon hanging around. Come on, it's friday!
A crazy day, that fits me. I recognize my real self even more those days... I had forgotten how I was, but... now I seem to be "under repair" and slowly back to the way I used to be. I have bad memories and I miss someone, but it's just over when it's over or when you give up.
Probably who's reading (if it has someone reading) isn't understanding. There's no problem, it was a... momentaneous outburst.
God. First post and I exceeded my limit writing too much. I completely forgot how a blog could be fun replacing diaries.
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