Reactor Core Melting

Hey, everyone! I just arrived from São Paulo (yes, it’s another city, far from here, btw), actually, I just woke up, because I arrived my mother’s home at 5:30AM and fell in the bed. LOL Well, let’s go... *euphoric

Day 15, Thursday
Here I am arriving in SP (São Paulo, Sao Paulo, Saint Paul, in a lame translation). It’s 6AM right now, and we and the people in the caravan are heading to the hotel where we can leave our things in our rooms and then, right away to the event. I may add the air here is kind of… less “breathable” than in my actual “hometown”. I am a bit sick of the traveling, I know I wasn’t mean to travel in buses, but I still like to. This, or airplane.
I’m still uncertain if I can be relieved Paula and her mother are in the same room as me and my mom, or if I can be annoyed. Paula’s mother pisses me off really easily, she says the same thing many times, and I don’t like this kind of repetition.

[10AM] We got in the event, and it looked way smaller than it really is. When I could break free from the line, it just proved my first impression wrong. It is HUGE. Btw, I spent so many time standing in line, maybe almost an hour. There I met my friend Rikki, I was holding a sign written “Rikki, look at us here *¬*”, LOL. When he passed by that door, I literally jumped on him XD

The first day was normal. Not many people in the event, the three of us walked a lot… and I bought two nendoroids and a figure. My mom told me I was out of control, LOL. I bought Yowane Haku and Akita Neru (nendoroid) and Hatsune Miku (figure), she’s huge! LOL. And her price, as well, was huge. But she’s so beautiful it does make it worth. I guess… LOL

When I finally arrived at the hotel, I could rest a bit. Until the next morning at 8:30AM. I had a weird dream. I was in the middle of a unknown street, it was raining, and I was in a white dress and a rose made crown, singing Just be Friends by Megurine Luka (VOCALOID CV03).

Day 16, Friday
I was feeling sick when I woke up. Then I started to dress, it was cosplay day for me! I bandaged my chest, put an extra pants under my cosplay one. I went downstairs to eat some cake and… just this, LOL, in the breakfast. Water. I drank water. The breakfast there was a little… nasty. *finicky* I mean, I didn’t like most of the things there.

Today was an euphoric day! At least, I was euphoric! I was going to meet more two friends. And I was finally wearing my fail cosplay! Me and my friend (Rikki) were meant to take a battle photo, but the weather was a bitch, and we were like “not now”. We just forgot to take the photo later.

When my friend (Hannah, the Ninon Beart one) found me, a photographer was taking my photo. She kinda tickled me, and when I turned back, I screamed and jumped on her, really! After so many time wanting to meet each other, we finally did it! I was very, very happy :’D And I could finally give her the gift I bought two years ago (it was a plushie cow). We didn’t want to stop hugging each other, and my mom said “Stop it, I’m easily moved by this kind of things :’D” xD

On a videogame area we found another friend, Hyque. We were like “who’s that” until he introduced himself, so we went “Ohhhhh! 8D” and greeted him. The weird thing is that after this, he completely vanished. Me, Hannah and Rikki went to a place called Asia Fest and sent him a cellphone message telling him where we were. But he didn’t show up. We spent one hour or more there, and nothing.

Oh, yes. I also got engaged and married at Asia Fest. Using those “white board” signs, I asked my anata and just found out I was already married with her. LOL. Then a random guy came, stole my sign and started to draw my caricature on it. He totally broke the romance.

Before this, I remember we were at one of the stages there in the event, Paula was going to perform her presentation as Suigin Tou, but we didn’t see it. We needed some rest, and Asia Fest was the only place that had available chairs. We also had to wait for Hyque.

Back at the hotel, I didn’t believe I could finally remove those bandages. I felt so much relieved, no sense of how. That’s the problem with crossdressing. And I don’t “have” many… _“thing” in my chest. If I had…well, it could be worse.

Day 17, Saturday
Ah! The best day ever! I can’t believe on how it was. I actually can’t believe until now <3 I woke up feeling very sick, and woke up, like… two hours earlier because Paula’s mother just decided to make noise arranging their things. Ok, ok, I understand, but two hours earlier?! It pissed me off, since I was already feeling bad.

After a breakfast on which I didn’t eat actually nothing, only a watermelon piece (thing that doesn’t fill you up), we went to a “tour” in the city, in a district called Liberdade (Liberty, or if you want my literal and lame translation, Freedom). We saw many things there, it was a Nipponese district. I filmed some of its places, and took photos.

Paula didn’t give me a break and often told me to “take a chance”. I guess I kind of tried this after, when we got at Anime Friends after lunch. You don’t have to know what she meant. But maybe you can find it out.

I met Rikki, Hannah and Ingrid (her friend) randomly there, walking together. We ended up in the karaoke/videogame room, where I wanted to try to sing. Waiting my turn, we sat in the front of the door. Hannah was feeling sick, and I knew she went to the infirmary in AF. Even thus, I hugged her, LOL. I’m very inconvenient. But this really worried me, she told me she didn’t eat anything, or sleep well…

We found chairs inside the room, and sat there, since the room was much warmer. The weather was unpleasant again. In my turn, I sang Tsunaida te ni kiss wo (D.Gray-Man), but the music stopped in the middle of the song. The people there started to say “That’s sabotage, only because she was singing well! :U” xD I feel happy they thought so. Then it started again from the beginning, but I couldn’t help it and started to laugh in one of the parts XD Trash, I know. I got applauded at the end, and my friends told me I was the one who sang better. But they are suspect to say. At least, I feel happy they enjoyed. :’D
Now outside the room, Ingrid told us she was going… somewhere… *can’t remember* And vanished. Hannah started to tremble because she was feeling cold, and her cosplay was very unfortunate of having her to use a short instead of pants.

(she didn’t cosplay yesterday because of the cold, anyway. She was beautiful. Lie, she IS beautiful.)

Everything I could do: hug her and try to warm her. At least I had a excuse to walk holding her close like that. Paula and Rikki were walking after us and suddenly, Paula shows us a sign written “We will disappear!”. And they disappeared, really. I knew this was Paula’s way of “help”. I just knew it.

Hannah and I ended up in a room called “Under a Rose”, where some people were squeezing a plushie cat in the showcase’s glass to the passerby’s to see. They had also a television exhibiting something about bands, I remember almost nothing but that we sat there and were… I don’t know how I can call, cuddling? …Really?

I just know I was feeling… I don’t know… Feel her hand on my arm was… I mean, I was dressed, but I could still feel it firm there. My heart was beating madly, my cheek was leaning on her face, everything I did was sigh all the time… And I also messed up her hair. LOL

I did wait too much to gather all my courage to ask her to close her eyes and kiss her in the cheek. Yeah, I am like that. I just didn’t expect that after retributing the kiss and hugging me, she would hold my face and kiss me. Yes, I didn’t. That’s one of the reasons why my face was like “What”. One of the many. And because… there was so many people that could see… I didn’t think I would try it there, but she did… so…
…yes, so… Hate you? No. I love you. I had never felt like this.

I can assume I was thinking on how to do it again still that day. I just needed to. Being too shy spoils everything. And when you combine a shy person with a crowded place and a “forbidden” thing? It’s thousand times worse. Walking holding hands for while could help to suppress this. It didn’t. We even looked for a warm and quiet place, but being cold as it was, everyone was gathering in the warm places…

I also assume I can’t remember many things, maybe I was focusing too much on think of how I could do that. LOL Stupid. But I had to. I know that when she was about to leave the event (now she changed her clothes and wasn’t feeling cold anymore), and when I saw myself free of my mother around, I pulled her to a place near to say goodbye, it was time for her to go home. Thanks God it was too dark, so my mom probably didn’t see that kiss. Murphy is a bitch and she called me JUST THIS MOMENT. It was a bit frenetic, now I wonder if all our “things” are meant to be funny xD

If they are, I can’t imagine how could be the serious marriage proposal. I hope it doesn’t involve light sabers and titanic. Just thinking.

Yes… I love you so much too…

What I remember after that? Almost nothing. I went to the food court, it was near the stage where Paula performed. My mind was in the clouds. And my friends noticed it. I just wrote “Happy, but tired” in my sign, the word “happy” having several hearts, rainbows and musical notes around it. Oh! And we saw a girl with a sign written “Does anyone know Hetalia?”. Rikki and I just said: “Hetaliaaaaaa! :D” The girl was like “OHMY, SOMEONE 8D” and answered with the most excited “HETALIAAAA! :D” I ever saw until now. It was funny. XD

Back at the hotel, I just fell in the bed and stayed there sighing. I was surely happy, in Alpha estate. I didn’t even take my cosplay clothing off _{(thanks God again I didn’t bandage my chest this day)}, I was too busy being a love fool~ I. want. more.

Day 18, Sunday (last day)
Not much to talk about this one. The event was even more crowded than before, I swear I didn’t see so many people in my life. It was harder to move, and I got lost, like, four times from my mother and the other two. Thinking well, getting lost was one of the things I did the most in these four days.

God knows how, I found Rikki there, just because he was with a sign written “Rikki here” and he was calling me. He also almost broke me when saying goodbye XD’ I hate to admit it, but I am very delicate. My body, at least.

Back in the bus, going home, the people there, I don’t know how, just started to sing in a non-stop. I have no idea what those people drink or take, but it does work! They were singing anime openings in our language, and after, in Japanese. I sang the ones I knew, and I am hoar now, LOL.


After this text wall <3 I just can say I had so much fun. And that unfortunately, I didn’t take the battle photo. *dork* And I’m still wearing my day 17 and 18 bracelets, the ones they put on us so they know we are in the event. I’m just wearing my day 18 bracelet because it’s orange and it happens to be my favorite color. Day 17… I’m not taking it off. Not really < 33333333