Hey, everyone! I just arrived from São Paulo (yes, it’s another city, far from here, btw), actually, I just woke up, because I arrived my mother’s home at 5:30AM and fell in the bed. LOL Well, let’s go... *euphoric

Day 15, Thursday
Here I am arriving in SP (São Paulo, Sao Paulo, Saint Paul, in a lame translation). It’s 6AM right now, and we and the people in the caravan are heading to the hotel where we can leave our things in our rooms and then, right away to the event. I may add the air here is kind of… less “breathable” than in my actual “hometown”. I am a bit sick of the traveling, I know I wasn’t mean to travel in buses, but I still like to. This, or airplane.
I’m still uncertain if I can be relieved Paula and her mother are in the same room as me and my mom, or if I can be annoyed. Paula’s mother pisses me off really easily, she says the same thing many times, and I don’t like this kind of repetition.

[10AM] We got in the event, and it looked way smaller than it really is. When I could break free from the line, it just proved my first impression wrong. It is HUGE. Btw, I spent so many time standing in line, maybe almost an hour. There I met my friend Rikki, I was holding a sign written “Rikki, look at us here *¬*”, LOL. When he passed by that door, I literally jumped on him XD

The first day was normal. Not many people in the event, the three of us walked a lot… and I bought two nendoroids and a figure. My mom told me I was out of control, LOL. I bought Yowane Haku and Akita Neru (nendoroid) and Hatsune Miku (figure), she’s huge! LOL. And her price, as well, was huge. But she’s so beautiful it does make it worth. I guess… LOL

When I finally arrived at the hotel, I could rest a bit. Until the next morning at 8:30AM. I had a weird dream. I was in the middle of a unknown street, it was raining, and I was in a white dress and a rose made crown, singing Just be Friends by Megurine Luka (VOCALOID CV03).

Day 16, Friday
I was feeling sick when I woke up. Then I started to dress, it was cosplay day for me! I bandaged my chest, put an extra pants under my cosplay one. I went downstairs to eat some cake and… just this, LOL, in the breakfast. Water. I drank water. The breakfast there was a little… nasty. *finicky* I mean, I didn’t like most of the things there.

Today was an euphoric day! At least, I was euphoric! I was going to meet more two friends. And I was finally wearing my fail cosplay! Me and my friend (Rikki) were meant to take a battle photo, but the weather was a bitch, and we were like “not now”. We just forgot to take the photo later.

When my friend (Hannah, the Ninon Beart one) found me, a photographer was taking my photo. She kinda tickled me, and when I turned back, I screamed and jumped on her, really! After so many time wanting to meet each other, we finally did it! I was very, very happy :’D And I could finally give her the gift I bought two years ago (it was a plushie cow). We didn’t want to stop hugging each other, and my mom said “Stop it, I’m easily moved by this kind of things :’D” xD

On a videogame area we found another friend, Hyque. We were like “who’s that” until he introduced himself, so we went “Ohhhhh! 8D” and greeted him. The weird thing is that after this, he completely vanished. Me, Hannah and Rikki went to a place called Asia Fest and sent him a cellphone message telling him where we were. But he didn’t show up. We spent one hour or more there, and nothing.

Oh, yes. I also got engaged and married at Asia Fest. Using those “white board” signs, I asked my anata and just found out I was already married with her. LOL. Then a random guy came, stole my sign and started to draw my caricature on it. He totally broke the romance.

Before this, I remember we were at one of the stages there in the event, Paula was going to perform her presentation as Suigin Tou, but we didn’t see it. We needed some rest, and Asia Fest was the only place that had available chairs. We also had to wait for Hyque.

Back at the hotel, I didn’t believe I could finally remove those bandages. I felt so much relieved, no sense of how. That’s the problem with crossdressing. And I don’t “have” many… _“thing” in my chest. If I had…well, it could be worse.

Day 17, Saturday
Ah! The best day ever! I can’t believe on how it was. I actually can’t believe until now <3 I woke up feeling very sick, and woke up, like… two hours earlier because Paula’s mother just decided to make noise arranging their things. Ok, ok, I understand, but two hours earlier?! It pissed me off, since I was already feeling bad.

After a breakfast on which I didn’t eat actually nothing, only a watermelon piece (thing that doesn’t fill you up), we went to a “tour” in the city, in a district called Liberdade (Liberty, or if you want my literal and lame translation, Freedom). We saw many things there, it was a Nipponese district. I filmed some of its places, and took photos.

Paula didn’t give me a break and often told me to “take a chance”. I guess I kind of tried this after, when we got at Anime Friends after lunch. You don’t have to know what she meant. But maybe you can find it out.

I met Rikki, Hannah and Ingrid (her friend) randomly there, walking together. We ended up in the karaoke/videogame room, where I wanted to try to sing. Waiting my turn, we sat in the front of the door. Hannah was feeling sick, and I knew she went to the infirmary in AF. Even thus, I hugged her, LOL. I’m very inconvenient. But this really worried me, she told me she didn’t eat anything, or sleep well…

We found chairs inside the room, and sat there, since the room was much warmer. The weather was unpleasant again. In my turn, I sang Tsunaida te ni kiss wo (D.Gray-Man), but the music stopped in the middle of the song. The people there started to say “That’s sabotage, only because she was singing well! :U” xD I feel happy they thought so. Then it started again from the beginning, but I couldn’t help it and started to laugh in one of the parts XD Trash, I know. I got applauded at the end, and my friends told me I was the one who sang better. But they are suspect to say. At least, I feel happy they enjoyed. :’D
Now outside the room, Ingrid told us she was going… somewhere… *can’t remember* And vanished. Hannah started to tremble because she was feeling cold, and her cosplay was very unfortunate of having her to use a short instead of pants.

(she didn’t cosplay yesterday because of the cold, anyway. She was beautiful. Lie, she IS beautiful.)

Everything I could do: hug her and try to warm her. At least I had a excuse to walk holding her close like that. Paula and Rikki were walking after us and suddenly, Paula shows us a sign written “We will disappear!”. And they disappeared, really. I knew this was Paula’s way of “help”. I just knew it.

Hannah and I ended up in a room called “Under a Rose”, where some people were squeezing a plushie cat in the showcase’s glass to the passerby’s to see. They had also a television exhibiting something about bands, I remember almost nothing but that we sat there and were… I don’t know how I can call, cuddling? …Really?

I just know I was feeling… I don’t know… Feel her hand on my arm was… I mean, I was dressed, but I could still feel it firm there. My heart was beating madly, my cheek was leaning on her face, everything I did was sigh all the time… And I also messed up her hair. LOL

I did wait too much to gather all my courage to ask her to close her eyes and kiss her in the cheek. Yeah, I am like that. I just didn’t expect that after retributing the kiss and hugging me, she would hold my face and kiss me. Yes, I didn’t. That’s one of the reasons why my face was like “What”. One of the many. And because… there was so many people that could see… I didn’t think I would try it there, but she did… so…
…yes, so… Hate you? No. I love you. I had never felt like this.

I can assume I was thinking on how to do it again still that day. I just needed to. Being too shy spoils everything. And when you combine a shy person with a crowded place and a “forbidden” thing? It’s thousand times worse. Walking holding hands for while could help to suppress this. It didn’t. We even looked for a warm and quiet place, but being cold as it was, everyone was gathering in the warm places…

I also assume I can’t remember many things, maybe I was focusing too much on think of how I could do that. LOL Stupid. But I had to. I know that when she was about to leave the event (now she changed her clothes and wasn’t feeling cold anymore), and when I saw myself free of my mother around, I pulled her to a place near to say goodbye, it was time for her to go home. Thanks God it was too dark, so my mom probably didn’t see that kiss. Murphy is a bitch and she called me JUST THIS MOMENT. It was a bit frenetic, now I wonder if all our “things” are meant to be funny xD

If they are, I can’t imagine how could be the serious marriage proposal. I hope it doesn’t involve light sabers and titanic. Just thinking.

Yes… I love you so much too…

What I remember after that? Almost nothing. I went to the food court, it was near the stage where Paula performed. My mind was in the clouds. And my friends noticed it. I just wrote “Happy, but tired” in my sign, the word “happy” having several hearts, rainbows and musical notes around it. Oh! And we saw a girl with a sign written “Does anyone know Hetalia?”. Rikki and I just said: “Hetaliaaaaaa! :D” The girl was like “OHMY, SOMEONE 8D” and answered with the most excited “HETALIAAAA! :D” I ever saw until now. It was funny. XD

Back at the hotel, I just fell in the bed and stayed there sighing. I was surely happy, in Alpha estate. I didn’t even take my cosplay clothing off _{(thanks God again I didn’t bandage my chest this day)}, I was too busy being a love fool~ I. want. more.

Day 18, Sunday (last day)
Not much to talk about this one. The event was even more crowded than before, I swear I didn’t see so many people in my life. It was harder to move, and I got lost, like, four times from my mother and the other two. Thinking well, getting lost was one of the things I did the most in these four days.

God knows how, I found Rikki there, just because he was with a sign written “Rikki here” and he was calling me. He also almost broke me when saying goodbye XD’ I hate to admit it, but I am very delicate. My body, at least.

Back in the bus, going home, the people there, I don’t know how, just started to sing in a non-stop. I have no idea what those people drink or take, but it does work! They were singing anime openings in our language, and after, in Japanese. I sang the ones I knew, and I am hoar now, LOL.


After this text wall <3 I just can say I had so much fun. And that unfortunately, I didn’t take the battle photo. *dork* And I’m still wearing my day 17 and 18 bracelets, the ones they put on us so they know we are in the event. I’m just wearing my day 18 bracelet because it’s orange and it happens to be my favorite color. Day 17… I’m not taking it off. Not really < 33333333

Countdown!

Yeah, as always, I vanished suddenly. But no worry (or worry, a lot), I'm back! :D I've been sick, very sick, so I gave this up for a while. Now I'm all healthy and ready to go again!

And also! Talking about going somewhere, it's official: countdown to Anime Friends for me!

(if you are wondering what is Anime Friends, let's say it's an anime/manga event that happens once a year)

I'm going to cosplay as Roark (Hyouta) from Pokémon Diamond and Pearl. I just hope it's not this fail. LOL And and and also! I'm going to meet my friends there. I am so happy and euphoric! Today I woke up at 5AM, lol, I only do things like this when I am anxious for something. It's kinda hilarious and silly, I admit. LOL

I'll take a lot of photos, so many my camera will probably explode~ One of my friends will cosplay Lucas (also Pokémon Diamond and Pearl), another one will Ninon Beart (King of Fighters) and the one who's accompanying me, Suigin Tou (Rozen Maiden). Geez, it's gonna be amazing! I can't wait!

Wednesday, 11PM. I'm taking the bus to the city where the event takes place. Two days.

Holiday

So, I'm home again! I got tired from the traveling, but I went straight to Paula's house with Barbara @ saturday, since it was holiday here. And the details...

Thursday, Friday
I went to my mother's house. I don't spend many time with her, so I always have fun, even hating that city and the place where she lives. Ah, sometimes I just think I miss my mother. The funny thing is that I have never got along well with her XD

Thursday we went to the movies, me, my mother and sister, to watch Prince of Persia: Sands of Time. I really enjoyed the movie, and I think the cast looked a lot like the characters, especially Dastan and Tamina. Tamina was very beautiful as they said, indeed. After the movie finished, we walked inside the shopping, and I suddenly was hit by something as I saw the shelves of the stores: Valentine's Day is coming (here on my country, it's dated as June 12th).

My mother looked at a chocolate rose in the shelf and said: "That could do a nice gift. I think I'll give that to my girlfriend."

Then I was hit again. Girl...friend. What was that. When I asked for an explanation, she just said: "Well, my friend Carla doesn't have a boyfriend, me neither, so we change gifts. She says I am the man of the relationship."

And she started to laugh, like, enjoying herself, while I'm sure my face blushed so badly I could even feel the heat on my cheeks. Yes, yes, it's joke, but I didn't expect something like this coming from her, since she is so... religious.

Friday, at morning, I went to a hairdresser to cut my bangs because they were annoying me being too long, and decided to cut a bit of my hair since its hair tips were damaged a little. I told the lady to cut one finger of the lenght, and it looked like she cut at least 3. That's okay, hair grows, and I like it the way it is now, I just... wanted to leave it grow long again, but now it will take more time.

Saturday
I got in the bus, took my assent, and slept all the travel back. When I arrived at the bus station, I called Paula, and her mother came with her to take me, and then, Barbara, to their house. Arriving there, I threw myself in her bed and started to loaf around. Then, Barbara (who was playing orkut games until now) was like "Let's watch Hetalia! :D", and we were like "LOL, okay! :D"

Hetalia: Axis Powers is a very funny anime, which I don't know if I can call anime, since each episode is about five minutes long. Italy is awesome XD He's so funny and jolly. I like all of them, but Italy, being the protagonist, calls our attention. Oh, and the other two countries too: Germany and Japan. Especially when Italy hugs Japan XD I laughed a lot at this scene.

Later, I played Shadow of the Colossus (cause I won't lose any chance to play it XD), got owned multiple times by Phalanx until I finally managed to get on him (hitting his air bags was easy in comparison to the task of getting on him. Every time I jumped from Agro, I couldn't hold firmly on his fins). And then, straight to Cenobia, ignoring the fact that he's the colossus I fear the most (after Hydrus and Argus, maybe), because he's small and one hit, you're knocked out. But I did it. In a lame way, but I did it! XD

And stopped, next is Argus and then Malus... and so the game ends. I don't want the end yet, nor I want to fight Argus.

Sleep time, everyone in their beds. I was sharing the bed with Barbara, while Paula was on hers. Barbara was knocked out by sleepiness while I played Okami, and then I started to talk to Paula. And the most random things came out. We laughed a lot XD

And today, monday, I just arrived school with her since her mother took me there, and as we were late, we sat in the secretary's couch and started to read a book which test would be in the next class. It was funny how people gathered there wanting to know the story, because no one read it. Yes. My Literature teacher has a very... boring taste for books.

Text wall, but I don't care! 8D If you got to read until now, here's a cookie for you. *runs*

Thursday, friday... late at night

Ahhh, God. It was a busy week for me. I had classes and exams all the days... and yesterday (thursday), I went to Rio again to take my passport since it was done. As I expected, my photography sucks. LOL. Well, I think that's normal.

As always, my father got lost when we were leaving the airport. The thing is that he's a good driver. And if he's like that, I wonder the driver I am. Jesus Christ save us, LOL. We left my mother at her university after lunch, and my sister at school. Then, we had to wait my grandfather at the shopping, because he was in consultation with his doctor. And so we could take the road to come home.

As expected again, we got lost inside the bank there while trying to draw out money from his account. This happens a lot XD But we laughed like crazy after that.

Back to the car, I just laid down and fell asleep... I spent the whole itineration sleeping. And I missed my math test, which was yesterday... Ahhh, my math teacher is going to kill me, but I didn't have any day to get my passport but yesterday.

Today, I was meant to have chemistry, english and spanish tests. But someone in the another class STOLE our teacher's test. Due to that, the test was cancelled. And the person, caught and sued for punitive damages. Well done. Now, the test is next tuesday, and it's gonna be a mass murder.

And, also! I managed to record my voice bank for UTAU! I did vocal warming and started. Exactly 444 syllables were recorded. Now, I have to configure her oto.inis. God give me patience for that, cause otos are really boring to do... Not hard, but really boring.

Layout + stuff

As you can see, I changed the layout. I couldn't do myself one *I can't get the damn coding right*, so I just put up the pic I used to the intended one. I drew it based off Kagamine Rin's Meltdown PV :3

Well, Thursday, I went to the cinema to watch Alice in Wonderland by Tim Burton. Jesus Christ! D: I didn't think it could be this amazing! The White Kingdom was beautiful! It was so impeccably white and bright my eyes almost bled (and in 3D), but it was indeed beautiful! I could live there *¬* And the White Queen was very pretty :C

About the Hearts Kingdom, it was awesome too, of course! And Helena Bonham Carter's giant head scared me XD She played a very good queen, also, I couldn't expect something different from her.

I thought Johnny Depp was ugly as the Mad Hatter when I saw the movie poster, but watching the movie proved me wrong. He was awesome, and I just felt sorry for that poor man that was the Hatter he played. I'm his fan, of course! :D

When I first saw the girl that would play Alice, I thought she was a bit ugly. LOL. Again, I was wrong, she was lovely! :) And reminded me of a friend I had.

BUT THE CHESHIRE CAT! D: It was so... D: I want that cat. LOL It was awesome, beautiful, NAH! D: Its eyes were sooo hipnotic :'D Its fur seemed so real and fluffy, and... ;_; *ok, let's stop. LOL*

I really loved it <3 And I still want a Cheshire cat for me :C

On Friday, I almost couldn't go to school. When I arrived at my building's front door, I found out it was broken and would not open. I tried the switch that usually opens it, and nothing. A girl that arrived this time, tried her keys (as I don't have this door's key), and nothing.

She was very upset with this, while I was trying to think and failing miserably. LOL. Then I realized we could try to get out by the garage gateway. But the door which led to it was also locked. AHHHHH, LOL. She ran to her apartment to get the key, so she could unlock the door and her mother's car to get the control of the garage's gateway. Wow. Then we could be off there. I thanked her and ran to school... I had to sneak in math classes. Oh, life. MAYBE IT WAS DESTINY AND *is hit by a rock in the head and knocked off*

Later, me and my group partners went to Barbara's house to start searching our school work about World Cup. We chose England, as all the other good countries were already taken. But... England just won ONE cup, which one was placed in England itself... Wow... At least, England isn't like Japan, Japan isn't a good football player, since we didn't find ANYTHING about Japan in the cup. What made us to change the country.

After this, we played a little on Barbara's PS2. I defeated Pelagia, the twelfth colossus, finally, and then Paula put Rule of Rose for us to start playing with her, since she wanted to start playing this game with me and Barbara. The game seems very good, the only thing that pisses me off is that Jennifer is so slow! Running with her wastes a lot of time. And that children scared me a lot... We managed to enter the house where two children were beating something in the front of, but we couldn't find any save point in such a hurry.

And when these storyline parts showed up, I couldn't help myself and started reading them in a calm and still crazy way, which made us laugh XD Barbara had an appointment, so we waited for Paula's father there while I told her a dream I had in a place very similar we were.

Ah, good times, I liked that dream 8D I chased someone the whole dream in a heavy rain, but I liked it, looked like a videogame.

Texwall post is textwall :D

Wow.

I just got home a few minutes ago, I'm tired as hell, but I had fun. I went to another city to start my passport making, or else, I can't go anywhere outside the country. So, I met my mother and sister in their house, and then we went to the International Airport straight away.

Jesus Christ. That place is fucking amazing. Yes, I am a noob who didn't even step inside an airport until today. It was ENORMOUS *gasp*. It was funny how my dad and mom where arguing before we arrived, while he was driving.

"It's the way on left... NO, YOU TOOK RIGHT :U"
"I THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT, DAMMIT! :U"
"People, calm down..." > me
"Your dad is an air head ÒO"
"Hey, I'm not deaf, I can hear you! ÒO"
"LOL"

It may sound silly, but that's like old times. I missed this a bit, even knowing they'll never be like this once more. But you know what? My stepmother isn't like my mother, isn't funny as her, and will never be better than her. I'm 100% sure of this.

The rest was normal: fill in documents, show documents, show birth certificate, identity card... I was scared when the counter woman took my identity, she looked at it, then looked at me, as if she was doubting that person in the photo was really me. LOL. This scared me, really, I felt like a escaped prisoner.

After this proccess, we could have lunch. We walked kilometers *exaggerating* till we could reach Bob's XD It was when I realized how big that airport was... I saw some airplanes taking off... And I was like "*drools*". *NOOB* Oh, oh! When trying to reach Terminal two, we walked in those mats, they were giant... It was fun to walk backwards while it moved ahead *child* And to leave T2, I had to take a vehicle in there! XD The hall was enormous... And we would take too much time if we tried the mats again.

It seems the trip was completely boring, but I enjoyed it. I like things simple like this.

I had no sleep when going to the city *it took about 3 hours in the car*, but I was with my notebook, playing around with UTAU. Hope someday I'll manage to get it all about the program... and I have to record my voice bank c: For a while, I'll only play around...

Ahhh, I'm hungry~.

It is...

...It is raining outside. But in my mind it's sunny. It's a bit cold. But I feel warm. My hair is wet because I washed it. But I don't mind it, I feel comfortable.

And she said it was her fault. There's no such thing. There's no...

No. It's her fault. Because she's an amazing girl. No wonder why I fell in love with her. It's her fault because she's herself. And everything I would like to do, would say this and having her to stop blaming herself and worrying for non-existing things.

The one whose name I drew next to mine in that foggy window. I assume. And that's april 2009's memory. I'll never forget it. The one I didn't show this blog only because I write down my feelings and she would discover them (yes I'm silly). And that's the truth, among other truth.

If "you" are reading... I love you. So much :3 And as I said, I regret nothing, FUCK YEAH SEAKING! :U

What a cheesy post we have here. That's what happens when my mood is gay rainbowish good.

The rain outside got worse. But in my mind, it's still clear sun showing itself.