Ahhh, I can't understand.

I wonder why things sometimes seem to walk backwards. I was surprised, really.

I was meant to go to USA next year, to study, work, and then, live there. But I didn't know it could be this soon. August. I have until August to decide it... or better: on August, it'll be classes start there, and if I want to study on Florida, I HAVE to be there, on school, this day. It caught me by surprise.

I... I don't want to leave! Not yet! I just... don't feel ready to leave. It feels like throwing everything through the window, leaving everything behind with no care...

And... just when... I could doubt if I really like that someone, in that special way... It comes to my knowledge I have no doubt and just try to avoid thinking I'm not mistaken. Now that I won't be able to see this person easily as I could before if I "go away".

I don't know... things can walk backwards again, and maybe I won't go this year, as I really planned. I love my school, I love my classmates, I love my friends... I love... ...
I need time to think... It'll be great to my future, working there. I need time... time... I wish time could stop.

I think it's like I told to my father. Unfortunately, things aren't as we would like them to be, and aren't easy as we would like them to be.

I'll think... I'll find a solution. I know I can do it. At least, to meet them before I go. Yes.

I can do it.

That was the week I was hoping for!

Oh, my! I haven't shown up until now, my bad. (not that you care thiiiis muuuuuch, but still...)

The week which ends today was the best week of my life. Seriously! I had nice days before, but not a whole week! I feel so excited! ...And very tired, lol.

I'll separate the days resuming the story... I hope this won't take too long (or become a text wall).

Monday
At first, I was like: "Another school day, another boring school day...". I was very wrong. It was FAR from boring! Our first class was Biology, and we didn't have class at all.
We started talking about random things, such as past year memes (he wasn't our teacher past year), and this took 45 minutes! We laughed so much with him and our stories! XD I asked my friend to film it... This is totally going to youtube...!

Tuesday
The most normal day of the week. I was a bit bored, but found out I understand the new Math subject. Good for me!

Wednesday
Okay, this one was awesome. We had Physic Education class, but... of 32 students, 9 didn't forget their uniform. So, everyone to the library! Detention. LOL
I was there just because I had no place to stay during the class (I have medical certificate, so I don't participate). As the students were playing word games, watching TV (we have one in our school's library), I just opened my notebook, put my earphones, and started watching anime. Luckily it was with me on school this day.
After that, Text Production class. Teacher gave us an exercise on which you had to write a story using the elements it was giving you.
Such as woman, man, parasol, beach, meeting... She'll be terrorized when I show her my version.
('Cause I wanted to break the habit of writing straight love stories as everyone. The woman, in truth... well... when you truly love someone, their physic doesn't matter.)

Thursday
I did nothing on school. The thing I love the most to "do". My Math teacher seemed lazy like us this day, and gave us some exercises from our book, then said "See you next week, bye 8D". LOL. His voice makes me sleepy, he's so calm o_o

Friday
Amazing. Nuff' said. Truly amazing!
On English class today, we would present our works about the countries we chose. My group and I, no doubt, Japan. Suddenly I turned the leader of the group... So, I was meant to stand there in front of the class, reading all info we gathered about Japan on a Power Point file.
And this all dressed as a geisha.
I was having a nervous collapse. 30 minutes before the english class, me and my friend went to the coordinator's room to make-up my face, then, put the kimono on, the sandals...
I entered the video room with a fan covering my face. Then I just stood in the front of the data show screen, and closed the fan. Then Everyone went: "Oooooh O:" I greet everyone, (ohayo, minna-san, LOL), then, start the presentation, while the other group members were translating it to our language (portuguese).
When it was over... I fell on a chair and there I stayed all the time until the class end, with a group talking about New Zealand.
Everyone liked it very much! I feel very happy! Me, and my group!

Then, tour time! I went down the stairs (managing not to trip with that sandals), and started walking for the school. A guy stopped me to take a photo with him, LOL. Then we saw our biology teacher, and said "Come take a photo with me!!! 8D"

Then I undressed, put my normal clothes... But I didn't take off the make-up. And just walked home, with everyone in the street looking like "Wait, what???" XD

Arriving home... Well, I gave my stepmother a major scare. LOL. I swear I didn't mean to do so... But... It was funny, indeed.


...Fine. Text wall. LOL

Aw, God!

I'M BACK! HOORAY! Not back from any place, back from my artblock/hiatus! AHHHH! I feel so happy *OTL* I was so worried with tests, school and not having time to do anything, that I spent a long time without touching in a pencil to draw. Only to write notes with school purposes.

I managed to do a full sketch today. I missed drawing details and looking at them and saying "They look great". Ahhh~ Now, I'll have holidays, so this means: NON-STOP DRAWING! WHOO! *falls from the chair*

Today is my last school day on this week, I'll have thursday, friday, and weekend to sleep and draw <3 Can't believe it. Maybe I can work on something! I miss drawing with my tablet, all I was doing was on paper...

At least, I expect to sleep and draw. My dad and my stepmother will be home. Dad isn't a problem. But she is. If she wake me up at 10AM to do the dishes, I'll kill someone. XD I talk seriously.

Now, gonna get some sleep. I want to lazy in my bed.

PS: I started to watch Jigoku Shoujo and Shakugan no Shana these days. I knew I would enjoy them! Shakugan no Shana's first open (Hishoku no Sora) can't get out of my head...! Um... And Enma Ai... reminds me of... <3

Test disaster

Friday! Can't believe it! After a loooong week of tests, I'm finally free. Physics was a disaster; the whole class asked our teacher to cancel it and make another one because everyone didn't get any correct question... at first he said he would do so, but today we were informed it won't be canceled. Oh. Chemistry was terrible, too.

But Math. Math, this one really got everyone, it was a true carnage. I don't blame our teacher, but... WTF were those questions?! GAH! It was about the subject he said we had to sudy, but... we have never seen such questions! Arithmetic and Geometric Progression aren't difficult, I just don't know what he did there.

[Altough, my classmates panicking about it was rather funny.
- No one got its answer, cancel the last question, please! D8
- No 8D (teacher)
- But! If no one did it...
- There's something wrong...!
- Yes... the students... *the one who got a wrong question, but still can't help it*
- LOL, WHUT! (my friend)]

Ahhh. I remember now. I have a Literature test next Monday about a book our teacher asked us to read and count as the second bimester grade. That book is SO boring I didn't pass off chapter 4 in one month. ONE MONTH IS A LOT OF TIME! It makes me very sleepy when I read it. Now I know what to do when I'm having insomnia.

...I just can't understand why she always give us boring books... Her taste surely is dubious...

Well, whatever. I'll manage to force myself to read it in two days. My left wrist still hurts a lot, so, I won't keep writing too much.

Now, off to hunt shiny leaves on pokémon Soul Silver! I'll get my leaves crown for my Yulle in no time like this. (she's my Vulpix)

See ya!

Weekend + week stuff

...Didn't I say Rec would be terrible? At least, when you watch a scary movie, you know what to expect, or I really should be disturbed by it. And, happy thing, I believe there will be a 3 one, since the ending was so vague. Yay. *facepalm*

Oh, yes. The weekend at my friend's house was really helpful. Nothing better than being sick and staying awake until 4AM trying to quit video games.

And, I didn't know .Hack//G.U. was so cool and addicting! She got me to play it, and my opinion it was too hard for me just disappeared (meh, that was just me being lazy. I wanted to play SotC... but Hack was a good choice, too!) When I managed to make a Ren Geki the first time, I was like "now I'll use this as hell!". And it was so cool! I loved the chims, poor thing we have to kick them...

(And, is it me, or Haseo really looks like Allen Walker from D.Gray-Man? I didn't stop saying it while I played. LOL. And Atoli reminds me of Tinkerbell... *shot*)

Still talking about video games. I played my Wii Resort today for the first time and it's... just... amazing. It was annoying to play with my right hand (I'm right-handed, but playing Wii, preference is left), but since, I have no idea how exactly, I opened my wrist, it's no use... My right shoulder problem proved to be really healing, after all this effort I did playing. I became pro in Swordplay, but my favorite is Skydiving. [/you didn't ask]

Today, classes were very interesting. I'm having my exams, but the school decided students aren't allowed to go home after finishing tests anymore, so we have classes, what was a pain. But in Text Production class, we had a debate about homosexuality.

It was fun because all my classmates actually don't know how to explicate their opinions. We talked, we complained, we yelled. I wasn't intending to say anything, but I just couldn't keep mute while they went crazy XD It was very interesting... specially when the boys talked about it with no preconcept.

I have to study math, but I don't wantttt tooooo... D: And then, chemistry. Ahhh, I want to sleep. But I'd rather to get a good grade than sleeping...

PS: God, Lucky Star opening is addicting!

Stress someday will kill me.

I disappeared again, whooo. Yes, I'm aware no one actually read this, but, whatever~

That's right. Thanks God tomorrow is Friday. I'll have to watch a movie in Spanish classes, the worst movie ever, and it even has a "2" on its name, so I know what I expect to see. I'm talking about Rec. It disturbs me so easily, but, believe me or not, I'm not afraid of it. I'm eager to watch it. (maybe I like to suffer?)

My aunt is coming back to USA tomorrow at night. She'll take my little sister to my mom's house (she lives in the same country as me, but not the same city). AND THEN. Chaos will stop in this house, hopefully. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT IS TO GET HOME AFTER SCHOOL, TIRED (because you had no sleep last nights), AND THEN ALL YOU CAN SEE ARE CHILDREN RUNNING AROUND YOU SCREAMING AND STOMPING THE FLOOR LIKE THEY WERE HIPPOS.

Cahem. Pardon me, I got angry.~

Man, I'm tired of this chaos! And I can't even lock myself in my room, my dad complains that I do not socialize with my family members. What family members. My 'Step-family' doesn't need any social interaction by me. At least, I won't kill anyone. No matter how hard I wish to, I wouldn't want to meet jail this young. :3

Forget them. And those dem... I mean, children. I like my cousin and sister, but when they're all together... If you like children, trust me, you would stop liking them having to deal with my stepmother's children.

I need to sleep, Christ! But I have no sleepiness now, and I'm sure I won't later. Don't know what is happening, maybe stress is knocking me out slowly. I really don't feel very well... yesterday I fainted for 'no reason' (low blood pressure, I guess), and I almost spit fire when talking to others. LOL, poor people...

It won't last this much, I hope. My stress is due to family ridiculous behavior, and as I'm going to my friend's house to spend a weekend... Our school work preparations will help me to forget this XD Now, coming back to my cards game. No, I'm not addicted *cough* It helps me to relieve myself.

And besides all this stress... receiving cellphone messages from her makes me feel happy and loved... [/don't mind me]

Behold giant post! YAY!

Fun in family?

I didn't post anything in... one week, LOL. Not that I care that much, or not that YOU care this much.

My aunt arrived from USA friday day 6. I was arriving home as I always do, then she suddenly appears and opens the elevator's door and I was like WTF while she kil... I mean, hugged me and carried me inside the apartment tripping in everything. I earned a Nintendo Wii! Now I just need to wait my Okami to be delivered.

Last wednesday I had an allergy crisis. I had fever and non-stop coughing, but gladly I felt better thursday at morning, because I had a Math test! I was so nervous, but I guess I did pretty well.

Yesterday, more relatives arrived here. My grandma's birthday party is today, and they all came to see my aunt, cousin, and all. I have no idea how we get a bed for everyone! Now we're 15 in one average apartment.

But I'm having non-stop fun! Yesterday, while I was drawing, my parents and never-ending cousins (all of them are adults, but, oh) went to a snooker bar to have some fun. 2AM they arrived laughing and telling us (me and stepsister) what they did and saw. I laughed until my death, now I just did some resurrect to post here (?).

Today, more relatives are coming! Oh, my, LOL. Then we will be 18 in total... I'm going now to the party. I'm sure I'll have fun, but for now I'll just keep with my cards game. And I need a 3 of clumps.